Well...all I can share on this one is "There is a Higher Power, and I'm not Him" :)
And it took many moons, and many little and big, rude awakenings, and little and big realizations..to come to that conclusion...
I was always one to try things my way."The Ego Thing"....until there were enough bruises and pain..until things got so bad..there was no choice...but to surrender..
The rest of it? It would fill a book....and this kid types with one finger..:)
You have a good day eh...
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
I do not remember ever having a specific spiritual experience. I kept waiting for one when I came into the program, like "ok, God, it's time, give me my Big Experience". It took a few years to dawn on me, that I was in a constant state of experience, simply by being aware, for the first time in years, of my surroundings. I found that experiencing the small bounties of the day, like, remembering to eat, tucking one of my kids in at night, stopping to watch the sun settle down, reading myself to sleep instead of drinking into oblivion--these were, for me, the beginning of a spiritual experience. Now, I can acknowledge it simply in awareness. I was so busy looking for it, I nearly missed it. With how deep down I dug before I got here, just being alive is my spiritual experience.. Hugs, Wren
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i found god in myself/and I loved her/i loved her fiercely--Ntozake Shange
thats a great topic to bring up at a meeting, i've heard some amazing stories [very moving] when thats the topic. i will tell you one of mine [theres lots] one time i was all messed up about a relationship gone bad and decided to get loaded, i didnt want my 2 best friends to hear through the grapevine i got drunk so i decided to phone them before i went to the liquor store, they were talking to each other on the phone and i couldnt get through, so decided to take a nap and try to call later, this was about noon. i woke up the next morning [slept 18 hrs] compulsion to drink completely gone. doesnt sound like much but it was big to me.
Thanks to all of you for sharing. I believe that, like Wren, I am waiting and looking for something big to happen to me. I need to stop looking for some big miracle to happen and be grateful for the life that I have today.....I will work on that.....can anyone say Gratitude List???
I think the greatest spiritual experience I have had in my short time sober is that I now have the desire to live, where before I awaited death. Kind of grim but that's a huge one to me. Along with my desire to live I also have become more willing to follow suggestions (orders!) Have a great week Jen(iffer)
