Hi All, I'm Chris and I'm an alcoholic, I'm also a real stubborn person.
stub·born (stŭb'ərn) adj., -er, -est.
Unreasonably, often perversely unyielding; bullheaded.
Firmly resolved or determined; resolute. See synonyms at obstinate.
Characterized by perseverance; persistent.
Difficult to treat or deal with; resistant to treatment or effort: stubborn soil; stubborn stains.
[Middle English stuborn.]
stub'born·lyadv. stub'born·nessn.
Sounds like many alcoholics. How many years did it take you from realising you had a problem, do dealing with it and either getting medical help or going to a meeting? Took me about 12 years. Still after a hospital detox and another home based one since, I went out shopping today. Julie my Wife had gone for a haircut and I was making the evening meal.
Saw the whisky bottles on the shelf, and (big blue flash of light and a bang) insanity kicked in....... £9.99 bottle of scotch in the basket.
Drove home (hard work at the moment, my car needs a new cylinder head gasket)
By the time I got home sanity reigned suprieme. I was going to pour it down the sink, but I hate wasting money so I wrapped it up and gave it to a neighbour (not a problem drinker).
I know alcohol will take my wife, life, job, home and car, IF I LET IT.
It's the first drink that kills, stay away from it.
Hope you all have a good day.
Best wishes
Chris.
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Good post Chris. It's very difficult to do something about a problem until we accept the fact that it is a problem. I'm glad to hear that you didn't take that drink. That tells me that there truly is a higher power working in the lives of us alcoholics. At times there is no effective mental defense against that first drink. You have just demonstrated to me that this program does work if we allow it to. Your story just made my day that much brighter. Thankyou very much!
I don't know if I am on the same track as everyone else but.....
I too have done that, I have been in a shop and seen the drink, in my case beer, bought it and then got home and thought 'No I can not do this', and either thrown it away or just left it in the fridge, and every time I opend that fridge door there was a reminder as to how weak I was
On the odd occasion the 'weakness' took over, but other times I said 'NO'
No matter how much it pissed me off...and it did!
Hope I haven't gone too far from the subject, and if I have 'sorry'
Good for you for getting rid of that liquor! I myself have never bought alcohol and then not drank it......unfortunately. Shows that your recovery today is strong and I hope to be there as well someday...