Off the drugs now. took a months supply in 3 days. dont feel any support from my sponcer, ie he has not called me once since I told him, man I just dont know.
can I call diazepam a drug?: I called "frank" when I was doing them 3 years ago badly, and was told they only help people on crack and stuff. felt isolated like I couldnt pidgeon hole it.
I dont just think alcohol is my problem, its everything.
I dont know what to do?
on a plus side I am back at work now, and have a tony blair smile (CHEESE) its fake so I need to fit in with the crowd. .but they say "your upbeat today Rob" yes sir!!!
Can you call diazepam a drug? Well, I guess my question is what else would you call it, since that is what it is.
I sponsor a girl who is a drug addict and alcoholic and of all things, she relapsed on Sudafed! It's amazing how easy it is to use and abuse anything.
You said you don't know what to do. I know what worked for me. I went to meetings, lots of them. I called my sponsor every day for a full year. I worked the steps of Acoholics Anonymous. I asked for help to stay sober each day and said thank you for each day sober at the end of the day. I got involved with a home group. I did service work at my home group. I was on the phone a LOT, not just with my sponsor. I got to meetings early and stayed late. I joined the folks who went out after for coffee or dessert (hence the um...little weight gain...). I didn't drink and I didn't drug NO MATTER WHAT, no matter how much it hurt, no matter how hard it was. I used the phone first...I think I did phone marathons for a while. I got outside help in the form of therapy/counseling, but made sure it was with someone who had experience dealing with an alcoholic as well as my outside issues so that I didn't have the opportunity to BS.
These are all suggestions that were made to me very, very early in sobriety. Fortunately for me, I was desperate enough to take those suggestions.
Oh, and one more thing. My sponsor NEVER called me. It wasn't his job. It was never his job to work harder at my sobriety than I was willing to. Nope, it was MY job to call him. (He'd return my calls if I ended up having to leave a message, though) My sponsor didn't want what I had - I wanted what HE had....so guess who got to do the footwork?
You might want to check out the NA board here, though sometime it doesn't see much action and check out "narecovery.org" There's alot of good recovery in NA and in NA alcohol is considered a drug and calling oneself a addict alcoholic is a faux pas, (undermines unity that the problem is the disease of addiction not a certain drug). There's a link on the na.org site to a worldwide meeting locator. Good luck. Bob.
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problem is I have not one friend in the world, my family are not even close. no one talks to me at AA. they have their clicks and I must be evil or something but the fact that they dont talk to me sickens me, I dont even want to share cos I know they think I am not worth living
no one talks to me at AA. they have their clicks and I must be evil or something but the fact that they dont talk to me sickens me,
Hi Robert. I would strongly reccomend going to a different meeting if you have one in your area. Ignoring people who need help is not what AA is about, sounds like you've just picked a really bad group.
Best wishes,
Bye for now
Chris.
-- Edited by Cabbageheadchris at 12:19, 2006-05-13
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