Well you hit the nail on the head, Control, not about other people, places and things, Its an Inside Job, just adjusting to the word Acceptance, applying it to a very personal sense of dissapointment and Sadness.
I can't, He Can, and I am doing the Best I can do to.... to Let Him.
I have a little book called the Prayers of the Cosmos, the Aramaic translations of the Lords Prayer, and has a wonderful verse on "letting go, Heartbeat by Heartbeat", so that is where I am sitting today, in that verse, heartbeat, by heartbeat. He gives us life to live Abundently, not any way around that.
Tools falling from sky, yes, but I think a wrench smacked me in the head, no accidents in His World.
Hope you get out of the repair shop soon. Damn brain mechanics are too expensive these days!! It'll get better. That's one guarantee we have as long as we stay sober and do the next right thing. You're in my prayers.