Well last time I was here I was sitting on my 'Pitty pot' a little,
and hey guess what......? I'm back on it again,
I have had a drink every night this last week, but not got drunk...just had at most 4 drinks.
I lost my baby on April 30th, not through me doing anything bad/wrong, just 'one of those things'.
I don't want to get drunk just forget a little.
Other than that I have been OK(ish), I have had a bad day today tho, been panicing ALOT since last Tuesday when I had it confirmed, but it all seems to have come to a head today, dunno why????.....got so close to taking myself off to hospital coz I felt so bad and in pain, but I didn't, however I am still scared to death, I am just praying that I don't get back to the same place I was last year with the panic attacks and depression...that I think would send me just that little bit further over the edge.
Anyway thats my excuse for today, hope you have all been keeping well and out of trouble!!, take care and have nice happy days....
So very sorry for your loss, Grief can slam you right into darkness, and I am so glad to see you Posting.
I have been Blessed, when I have gone through some real tough, tough grief, I had some time in the Program, so drinking was never an option thru it, that was the Blessing.
I have your email, i think, but would you write to me at AOL, I can send you an attachment thru email, that I cannot send thru here, it is an article Phil sent me on Grief, that is really excellent, and you can go here to this site, and enter Grief, in the Seach items, and the chart on the Grief cycle will come up, I hope.
Anyway, so, so happy you are here, and hope that you will stay, we are not judging you dear, that is coming from you, Promise.
I am just GRATEFUL to see your Post, that is my only feeling that comes up.
Panic attacks and all the over-whelming fears you are experiencing right now, going to the hospital and asking for help sounds like a great idea to me, Panic attacks need Medical attention. Hope you go get that help. do you have a Doctor you can talk to about this, if not, the hopital could direct you to one.
Love and Hugs to you, at this very sad time in your life, my Prayers are with you, Flumpy, God Bless you Dear.
hi, flumpy,,, I've been wondering how you are. I miscarried one, and not only is there normal grief, but also hormonal changes like after having a baby,, including depression. I agree with consulting a good doctor to help you through. I'm glad you're back here too, and hope you find a local support group too. We usually do better if we work through the grief instead of trying to stuff it. It stays there until we deal with it and can affect us in ways that we don't want until we work it through. Dealing with real valid sadness and stuff is not the same as being on a pity pot. Being on a pity pot means, to me, that we get stuck in self-pity and don't resolve things and move on.
love in recovery,
amanda
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flumpy wrote: , been panicing ALOT since last Tuesday when I had it confirmed, but it all seems to have come to a head today, dunno why????.....
A person experiences relief from panic after drinking alcohol, then finds that as it wears off, his anxiety returns more intensely than before, creating a treacherous and hard-to-break cycle. {in the book, “No More Fears,” Douglas Hunt, MD, 1988 and Robert Thayer, PhD, author of “The Origin of Everyday Moods.” 1997}
Alcohol depresses the central nervous system causing fatigue, agitation and anxiety. {“Anxiety and Stress,” Dr. Susan Lark, Energy Times magazine, Nov./Dec. 1998}
Drinking alcohol produces physiological stress, that is, some of the body’s responses to alcohol are similar to other stressors. Yet, individuals also drink to relieve stress. It is a paradox that people engage in an activity that produces effects similar to those that they are trying to relieve. {“Drinking and Stress,” Alcohol Alert, NIAAA, April 1996}
There is danger when relying on false coping mechanisms, like alcohol use, which only adds to one’s stress burden. {in the book, “Stress and Healing,” by Christopher Hobbs. 1997}
Hi Flumpy good to see you made it back! I couldnt even begin to imagine the loss of a child, but u r here, and I do know that pain shared is pain lessend. Keep commin Back
It is hard, but I am also happy in the knowlage that if indeed I never get the chance to have another baby at least I already have two of the most beautiful little girls in the word, and they are all mine !
And yes I agree with what Doll said about alcohol increasing the stress anxiety ect that you are already suffering with.
And that was I think the soul reason I didn't get 'drunk' just had a little drink and left it at that.
Though the amount doesn't matter, but at the time as they say: 'it seemed a good thing to do at the time'
Anyhow thats about all I have to say at the moment, so bye bye.
"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
