Since I've been putting sobriety into my life, I've been taking out a lot of good things. I can describe it best as a kind of quiet satisfaction. I feel good. I feel right with the world, on the right side of the fence. As long as I put sobriety into my life, almost everything I take out is good. The satisfaction you get out of living a sober life is made up of a lot of little things. You have the ambition to do things you didn't feel like doing when you were drinking. Am I getting satisfaction out of living a sober life?
I really like the idea of acknowledging the little things that come with Sobriety. But all I have to do is remember where I came from, before AA, and I get a very big dose of the Big Things I get everyday, 24 hours a day. I have this dental stuff ahead of me, and rather than going to my usual anxiety around this, I am committed to staying with the Gratitude that I can have this work done, it has been keeping it real simple, saw the dentist today and asked her about 15 questions, regarding the Procedures coming up, and the answers to those questions, chizzle away at the fears, one by one.
Got really sick in the middle of the night from some bad salmon, and after hugging the bowl for about an hour, stomach pain was gone, and I was feeling GRATEFUL, that this was coming to an end, not the beginning of Food Poisoning which I have had in the Past, and that will knock you down for about 10 days. Simple stuff, a shift in perception can make, along with His Help of course, a new way of looking at the rountine stuff in life, and am learning and studying how to really make that lemonaide, as soon as possible with those Lemons.
Today, I feel great, and and so Grateful, to this Program, that has saved and Changed my life in a way that I would not have believed possible many years ago.
God Bless you and you are doing so great, can not wait to hear about you new Job, and I forgot to say Congratulations, on the new Socks!
Hugs, Toni
One of my favorite people in the Program back in my hometown had a saying that I loved, he said it almost everytime he shared, "Now with this Program for living, that I have and use everyday. All my Problemsare Gold Plated". He had a lot more time that I did, but now I am beginning to reallyunderstand what he meant.
Thanks Toni!! I'm really looking forward to tomorrow. Sorry to hear about the bad salmon. I had food poisoning once and it was really horrible. Sounds like you had a mild case of it. One thing I've found out in sobriety is that no question is a stupid one. I'm going to hold off on the dentist until I can afford it, probably when I get my benifits(God willing) and you better believe I'm going to have some questions for him/her. Lol!!! Have a good night.
