I just want to say that the things i said last night.. especialy the F**K OFF stuff was not directed at anyone here.. it probably looked like i was telling amanda to f**k off. but i really wasnt.. I was just so pissed off last night.. and i just wanted to say to hell with the world and give in to the drink.. Fed up with the preassure and stress of it all.. angry at my disease and my situation.. my life..,.. And obviously I was drunk last night..
I hope i didnt upset anyone too much, if i did then i appologise..
Things just kinda boiled up last night.. I had said i would go to meetin but i coudlnt face it.. i was just fed up of it all and just saying bollox to everything..
Iv, tonight, read everything that was posted in respose. Thanx everyone..
Remember, Rob, that old saying. Take what you need, and leave the rest.....I'm just glad to see you posting. Hang in, alot of people do care. And will continue to care. Love Wren
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
Yesterday is Dead and Gone, the Good news is that it is just about Today, this 24 hours.
Sometimes i dwell on what I didnot do yesterday, and what a waste of time, that can be for me.
Start over, do it today, that's how I try to change my thinking on what did not get accomplished yesterday, who know what is was now, can't remember, haha.
Glad to see you here, hope you read the part of 'Dust yourself off, Pick yourself up, and start all over again" I always start humming that when I write it, makes me laugh.
hey Rob. Not upset me mate - we are all alkys at the end of the day and we dont mind a bit of grit. I just hope your feeling better mate., when I first came into aa I substituted alcohol for something else not always reccomended but that kept me sober, im not talking weed or nothing like that, im talking a DVD from blockbuster a bottle of coke and a BIGGGGG bar of galexy. try it sir! I think you deserve it.
if your in wycome you have probably seen my dad, he's one of us, but currently drinking/.
TONI___________Start over, do it today, that's how I try to change my thinking on what did not get accomplished yesterday, who know what is was now, can't remember, haha.Glad to see you here, hope you read the part of 'Dust yourself off, Pick yourself up, and start all over again"
ROSIE_________amen sista!!!! boy if i couldn't have my "one day at a time" slogan, i would be saying "bollocks to it all" too.......i mean it!!! sometimes i have to go one HOUR at a time.....and MAKE me stay in the NOW, not yesterday, nor tomorow.......its hard, but when i can manage it???? i feel almost sane!!!! hehehehe hugs to all and HAPPY EASTER comming up.......for me??? its set up the pool......sun/ books/ dvd's/ and takin care of me.....just doin what i want to do, WHEN i want to do it..................
Actually, it didn't occur to me to take it personally. I think I took it for what it was... you were drunk and had a bug up your arse. What do we expect from alkies anyway? even recovering ones?
I hear that about negative attention, eh? being a bad boy for not getting saved by the 12th Steppers.
Today I'm into working my own Steps... and on Step 3 again. I am surrendering!! to God! hands up in the air. Have your way with me, Lord!! I ain't gonna fight no more.
God bless you all,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
Actually, it didn't occur to me to take it personally. I think I took it for what it was... you were drunk and had a bug up your arse. What do we expect from alkies anyway? even recovering ones? I hear that about negative attention, eh? being a bad boy for not getting saved by the 12th Steppers. Today I'm into working my own Steps... and on Step 3 again. I am surrendering!! to God! hands up in the air. Have your way with me, Lord!! I ain't gonna fight no more. God bless you all, amanda
Im so pleased you didnt take it personaly.. cos i understand how it could be interperated (spelling?) that way....
