"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another, unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations." --Anais Nin (1946) The Diary of Aunt Nin, Vol 4 (1973)
You are not here to live up to my fantasies of romance or to make my life worthwhile. I am not here to satisfy your expectations or give you a reason to live. We each search our own meaning and build our own inner worlds.
I will share mine with you and will be mindful of your inner world so that when you unzip your heart to me, I will walk with awareness into that place. You should be an answer to my dreams not my fantasies.
We will not be perfect with one another. We may be insensitive and unaware some of the time. It doesn't mean that we are not right for each other; it only means that we are human.
In quarreling about the shadow, we often lose the substance. --Aesop
There is a fable about a man and his camel who were hired by a wealthy man to get him across the desert. The journey was so hot that they stopped to rest one day, and the only shade to be found was in the shadow of the camel. The two of them began to argue about who had the rights to the camel's shadow--the owner or the renter. They were so involved in their argument that the camel ran away and they didn't notice until it was long gone.
Sometimes we get so caught up in being right that we become like these two, fighting over a shadow. Instead of paying attention to our journey and sharing what we have, we let ourselves get distracted. It is more important to notice what we have, to share it as best we can, and continue our journey.
oh yeah, the old coda me, looking outside of her all the time....now i look INSIDE of me.....when i die, it is me and GOD , thats it.....people come and go....nothing and no ONE in this life is permanent.....sharing/ caring while u have them that is what i do...but NO attachments....NO putting my reason to live in another's hands.........and yeah, answer to my dreams, for however long i have it.........and yes, i am willling to be a "HUMAN BEING.....not a "HUMAN DOING"........i love and accept me UNconditionally as i shall any sig others in my life......and becuz i love them, they are free to go when they need/want to...........
