Been sober since 19 september 2004.(with a minor slip)
Was drinking as medication for panic attacks.
Today was OK at work, 1 funeral, no problems. Picked the wife up from her job, No problems. 15 mile drive to drop off some paperwork at a crematorium... no problem (overtime money is good)
BANG!!!! out of nowhere! Panic attack. shaking, vomiting, feelings of impending death etc. I'f you've had one, you know how horrible it is! No reason whatsoever for it!
15 miles from home driving during a panic attack (probably worse than drinking and driving) got there eventually!
Picked up a bottle of Whisky on the way. 1/2 bottle later and I'm not shaking.
I'm annoyed at myself.
Well. I'll be back here soon I hope. Hoping I won't need another detox.
You all help by being here, sometimes doctors are needed.
Thanks all,
bye for now
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
yep.. sometimes a doctor is needed. some are more familiar with what panic attacks are about and how to treat them. I have heard a few theories... one that makes sense is that somehow our body gets a rush of adrenalin,, and we feel the rush of adrenalin with all those symptoms. I do some biofeedback with mine sometimes. there is also a theory that PTSD involves adrenalin metabolism. But I'm not saying that that is what your problem is,,, cuz can't make diagnoses like this,, or give advice either,,, cuz we can't know. but there are better meds and doses, if needed, given by professionals, eh?
amanda
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(((((((((((Chris))))))))))))) I hope you get to a doctor soon. I use to have bad attacks and felt I was having a heart attack,it was worse though when I was drinking. Don't give up,you can pick back up recovery any time you want!!!
Yo Chris... See what your doctor says. I'm glad you came on and opened up about this. Don't worry (that'll only make it worse). Just put down that bottle and keep getting to meetings (and talking here too). This isn't a pissing contest. It's a day at a time for us all. We care about you.
Emailed my local community alcohol support team last night. I need to action this problem before it gets out of controll again.
AA meeting tonight.
Got to go, it's work time!
Bye for now
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
Hey Chris, good luck with all that! You can get through this just fine. My husband has panic attacks sometimes, and I usually take him for a walk and talk him down, and remind him to breathe. It doesn't even matter what I say to him, its the reassuring tone of voice. Maybe you can get your wife to do that for you?
((((((((((Chris)))))))))) so very proud of you nipping it in the bud. I had a two beer slip 21 months ago, and I got right back on track and tried harder than I ever did with the program. I gues some of us have to have "that one last taste." I hope you feel better today.
Good luck chris.. hope the meeting goes well... im still the wrong side of the fence.. at the moment.. though least i can see the fence ... its just off in the distance.. i will climb it soon..... (infamous words)
Nightmare bout the panic attack mate and the kinda relapse.. .. I hope you make it ok.. My mum used to get panic attacks.. i really cant rem if she saw doctor or not.. i think she did.. but she didnt talk too much about it.. but i was there a couple of times.. i rem one time she was in bed.. didnt even open her eyes and was freakin out over the bloody smallest of things.. i forget exactly what.. something to do with something she had said to a neighbour.. a really miniscule thing with no possible combacks but to her it was a big thing.. i totaly respected that... and i rem she had to go next door to tell them whatever she had to tell them.. .. Another time was really scarey cos she drove .. she just dissappeared me and dad where so worried but she came back after not too long.. she knew she shouldnt be driving in her current state of mind.. Im pretty sure she saw doc.. shes not had one in years.. though she is now an alcoholic.. ffs.. as is my dad.. but then most you guys know that i think anyway..
Hmm im not trying to get the attention on to me .. im just sharing.. is all.. Panic attacks may seem for no real reason and be over minor things.. but they are VERY real and are a real problem.. . i dont see any reason why i one day might not get one.. ..but at mo.. i just have this disease to contend with..
Hang in there mate and i hope tomorrow is a brighter day..
Hey dude. Nice hair ! it is natural green like incredible hulk? or dyed!! ??
How are you doing today? have you managed to get to a meeting. I had alot of slips and I thought that people in aa would not accept me and I got well resentful, well bugger me everything I projected turned out not to be true.
Have you got a sponcer and a big book? I shall be thinking of you bud, I certainly understand how you must be feeling, I got in the middle of the life boat and flooded myself in AA rather than Vodka and that worked for a good time, eventually I got a sponcer and started doing some simple steps which helped me. I know it sounds far off but it does get better if you are honest and open minded, Alcohol for me was the great persuader. It was either AA or death.
Ah, I have had numerous relapses, I went to my first meeting at 16, and it can be very difficult to quit when you can still have fun and havent been through as much pain as the last few years have been when I was "out" drinking and using- It can be a real nightmare, keep coming back, dont let pride or fatalism get in the way, its much better in the rooms-
