I'm not sure how this is going to sound or if it will make sense but I 'm sure someone will get it. I am struggling constantly inside knowing that I NEED to be sober in order to be what I am supposed to be. A good mom, grandmom, wife. I want to blame everyone around me. My husband tells me the only issue he sees is that when I drink my personality changes and I sometimes get crazy. Well, Duh!!! I was sober when we met 7yrs ago, I've been drunk for 6.5 of those years. I had over 14yrs sober. I knew better and still I let my addiction take off. I'm fighting every step of the way this time but I know what I need to do. and I need to do this for me and stop worrying about what my drunk friends, neighbors and work associates think. God Help me, I'm Home.
Welcome home Nana, It sounds like you know what you have to do and you are the one who has to do it. Keep coming here, read and post. Hope you find a face to face AA meeting soon.You are worth being sober.
HI, I was sober a while too and went back out for many years. it was hard to get back. I hope you do not have the slips I had in order to stay back. I'm going on two years,but am glad I'm still sober eventhough it's harder this time round. I felt too that I came home when I went back to AA. if you have to go to a detox,then do it,but me I went cold turkey so I'd never forget. No easier softer way for me LOL.
