Didnt go see manager in end.. .. .. But at end of day he called me and Ashely into office.. spoke bout lack of work going out etc.. Well impressed with Ashley cos he spoke up and said he was to blame.. ..
I spoke up about other points.. manager was cool... didnt moan.. just well we all talked.. i stayed with manager when ashely went back.. got EVERYTHING off my chest that i needed too..
I had a lot to say to manager.. he took it all on board.. ,will cut long story short!.. It went really well..
I told manager everthing he needed to know.. and things should improve.. .. he will be looking out for all the things iv said about now..
Anyway.. everythings cool.. shit sorted out..
Ok so i didnt make it to a meeting.. ffs.. i actualy realy wanted too today.. ... If there had been one at like 4pm ish i WOULD have gone.. but i think the waitin time was about 5 hours!. .so i came home and i drank.... i was thinkin of gettin taxi..but i fell alseep at about the time.. so well i woke up again but in bad timing with drinkin.... wierd night.. cant bleve shit raelly.. cos i REALLY wantedt to go to meeting.. today/... I DONT THINK IV EVER FELT LIKE THAT BEFORE.. i ACTUALY wanted to go to a meeting....and as i said if there had been a meeting at like 16:00 i would have gone.. ffs...
I do really want to go to a meeting now..iv wanted that all day.. first time iv ever wanted to go.... but i guess now that wont happen..tonight anyway..
Thanks for letting us know how things went. sounds like things were dealt with in positive and constructive ways.... and you almost went to a meeting... maybe tomorrow you'll actually get to one.
God bless you,
amanda
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What i mean bout actualy wantin to go to a meeting.. Normaly its a case of i think i should go but i dont want to ya know..well do want to go but not having the balls to.. . But i actualy wanted to go yesterday .. it was just the bloody time span thing.. i think the meetin was on at 9pm, something i was gona check and it was the fact i had so much time to kill..
Im not sure if there is a meeting anywhere tonight.. gona look into that later..
woke up feeling bit rough this morning but not too bad i guess. Still feeling more possitive than i have been feeling of late.. Just watched The Aviator.. good film..
Gota get all my crap out of the car today and if the rain holds off i will hoover it out.. bloody needs it.. gota get my car ready for summer basicaly.. camping and fishing trips coming. Hopefully find that bloody wallet full of coins that iv lost..
House to myself today, parents gone to stay at friends for the weekend so house is nice and quiet.
Sometimes there are meetings during the day on weekends. There is probably a booklet out that lists the times and places of meetings in your area,,, and probably a phone number to call to get a smaller list of those nearest you. We have those here in our state,,, any of you UK guys know if there are any out there?
Got the house to yourself this weekend,,, peaceful, eh? sounds like just what the doctor ordered. Can use that as time to catch up with your self, think freely,,, like a retreat weekend, only there. Enjoy.
love in recovery,
amanda
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