It is a cold, overcast, rainy day here NY. I am really in need of some prayers this week. I found out Friday that the custody decision re: my 3 y/o twins is coming in the next three days. I have been waiting almost six months feeling like I am spinning my wheels in a rut in the road but now that the moment of truth is here I am terrified. Please pray that I will be able to accept the decision however it comes down and turn over any disappointment to the Supreme being in charge of my life. Pray that I can have some peace with this decision and at long last let go of the festering resentments that I know are blocking my recovery. Pray that I will feel the presence of my Higher Power and know that I am not alone despite the fact that physically I am without family or even one friend here on the East coast.
Last night I laid awake in bed until 3:00 AM tossing, turning and half dreaming of trying to find my children but every time I would go to the room where they were, the room would be empty. Not a good night. Consequently, I am on my third cup of "very strong" coffee and not feeling to "up" this morning.
Goodmorning ZuZu, I just said a pray for you and your children. I will continue to pray , please let us know the decision. May you have the peace and serenity today that only comes from our Higher Power.
i am so sorry for what u r going through........my best wishes for u during this horrible time..........sometimes the hardest thing to do is ask for HP's will, not mine, especially when i have the trust issues that i do......but when there is no choice, the ONLY choice is do what i can....leave outcome to God......it sucks, but what else can ya do???? obsess over it like i do??? wore me out....so i just do what i can do and LEAVE IT.........and pray for the ability to accept outcome...............peace/ rosie
