A DAY'S PLAN On wakening let us think about the twenty-four hours ahead. We consider our plans for the day. Before we begin, we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives. Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 86 Every day I ask God kindle with me the fire of His love, so that love, burning bright and clear, will illuminate my thinking and permit me to better do His will. Throughout the day, as I allow outside circumstances to dampen my spirits, I ask God to sear my consciousness with the awareness that I can start my day over any time I choose; a hundred times, if necessary.
Thanks for that Post. And your thoughts, yes starting the day over, as many times as it takes. I have to tell you that in the last few days, as a result of Prayer, my days have been feeling a lot Lighter. I do believe, after going through the Grieving process of my Loss with Annie, I think I had lost all reasons for smiling, at least that is how it felt, carrying on, acknowledge her Loss that was so significant to me. Yesterday when I was shopping, I went by the isle that sell cat stuff, and rather than avoid looking down the isle, I just said, inside, Annie I am doing better now. Life is starting to feel good Annie, I know that is what you would, my dear little friend, would want.
I believe this new lightness comes from having my Spirit being returned. Thats how it feels anyway. Have been practicing smiling a lot, and I think what I am doing is praticing being happy, feeling good.
So Gammy, thank you for your thoughts this morning, it is so good to have you share your process with us.
Toni, I'm glad that you are progressing through the grieving process enough to see the other side of it now,, and begin to move on. I know the cat I have here.. is about 14,,, and I may be moving from here in 2 years... and I dread her loss very much. In fact that is kind of why I didn't want any animals like this... have lost a few in my lifetime, and it is always soo hard. *sighs*
your signature there reminds me of the song, "Let a smile be your umbrella, on a rainy, rainy day."
love in recovery,
amanda
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Thank you. It was just about one month ago, when I was Praying, I was asking God, will I ever be able to smile from the inside. The Grief over Annie sudden death, was the "Sharpest grief I had ever experienced. I had lost a Sister, two very dear friends died suddenly, only two weeks apart, a few years ago, and I could remember that feeling of having "way too much on my Plate", I recall telling a friend, "If I'm not sleeping, I am praying".
Annie's passing was different, she was my baby, the most loving adorable little thing. I use to think of her as a cuddly little puppy, Persian cats are so mellow, she never meowed, just a little squick, if she didn't like something. Other than that, she was just pure love, in every sense of the word. She was my comforter, whenever living alone would get to me. And with her absence, I no longer had the comfort of her love, so it was a "Duzzy" to get through, but time, the Great Healer, is beginning to show me a brand new prespective somehow. I do have all of those wonderful memories of her. And we go on, because that is all we can do, we walk right through the middle of it, and then the day comes when you begin to see the "shore on the other side". Grief can have a somewhat "blinding" effect on us, and the only thing that we CAN do is use our Faith, trusting that with Prayer, and Trusting God, always Trusting God, no matter what, He is the force that is there guiding us, when we have lost our sense of Spirit, which can happen when those lights go out. He is the Light to focus on, and patiently......... the light will be revealed.
And Amanda I allowed myself the smallest amount of dissappointment around my Son not coming over, we had a long talk, and he is in good health, so there was nothing to be dissappointed in. Life on life's terms, was a very easy one for me today.
So thank you for your compassion my friend, you have So Much compassion for me and all of the others on this Board, that express sadness in any way, I hope that you can see that for yourself.
God Bless you dear, that was all the hugs I needed, in one.
"as I allow outside circumstances to dampen my spirits, I ask God to sear my consciousness with the awareness that I can start my day over any time I choose; a hundred times, if necessary.
>>>>>>>>THIS part keeps me going....i can "begin again" 100 times a day if need be.........it helps me accept me when i am not doing so good........needed this share, gammy.....hows it goin????? hugs/ rosie
