Good morning, I think I shall make posting here a regular thing as it keeps me in touch with reality and other like minded peope. I am afraid today. I still have two weeks off work due to bad back and the results of MRI scan are due this week, the thing is I do not know what I am going to do with myself. I do not know if I am well enough to work. I am worried about money. and I am struggling to work step three, I would really be happy to hear from you all!. please do not take this as a downer, more a honest discussion. I have just woke up and I am going to take a bath and then buy some bread.
Good morning Robert,try keeping it in the day and do not worry about what will come. It has helped me out so much to live this way. You may also want to go to AA meetings and it will also help pass the time as well as help you not to drink. Come here and post as much as you can and the days will pass. Good luck with your test and I hope your back will get better soon.
There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.
One of these days is YESTERDAY with its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. YESTERDAY has passed forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world cannot bring back YESTERDAY. We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said. YESTERDAY is gone.
The other day we should not worry about is TOMORROW with its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and poor performance. TOMORROW is also beyond our immediate control.
TOMORROW'S sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds - but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in TOMORROW, for it is as yet unborn.
This leaves only one day - TODAY - Any person can fight the battles of just one day. It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities – YESTERDAY and TOMORROW that we break down.
It is not the experience of TODAY that drives people mad - it is remorse or bitterness for something which happened YESTERDAY and the dread of what TOMORROW may bring.
Let us, therefore, live but one day at a time.
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
I'm trying to stay connected through posting more often as well. What it has done for me is remind me of how fortunate I am these days. Sorry about the back. When i have time off I try and devote it to my family. We go for drives., stuff like that - which your back probably prevents you from enjoying.
I hear you on the money front as well. We are in significant debt due to huge dental bills and my educational expenses (I'm working on a doctorate in Urban Education). My wife stays home with our young daughter and we've got another on the way (Hooray!!)
Where's the money going to come from? I don't know. But I don't sweat it too much. I don't want to sound too corny, but I know that God will take care of us. He always does. I learned this through a lot of step work. The Big Book says "Fear of economic insecurity will leave us" or something like that. It does and has. that doesn't mean I'm ignoring it. I just know we'll be all right try not to freak about it.
Do I always just let it go and remain a calm picture of serenity? Nah... I'm human. But the good days and moments outweigh the bad. that could change of course.. but that's what the steps are for.
Does AA and the steps stop the stuff from hitting the fan? No, but it teaches us how to duck. I heard that at a meeting once. Hang in there. Mike in Boston
I am from the Alanon Board. Take care of that back! I am finding that I never ask for help but it is out there. Neighbors, friends, and strangers all seem willing to help when asked.
Hang out here. It saved me when all looked bleak. The folk here understand. I prayed the prayers they posted, absorbed their words of encouragement and faith that it will all turn out o.k. ...and it has! "This too, shall pass." Keep talking! -Paul
Robert-Rob, Glad you are here posting from the heart. Being honest, telling us how you feel. Keep posting. I hope you can get to an AA meeeting also. I think you said something about not being able to sit that long. If you explain your situation no one would mind if you stood at the back for awhile.
I share all of the above sentiments, someone wrote yesterday that it is not "This too shall stay" but "This too shall Pass". i am saying a Prayer for you that the circumstances you are in will turn around, for you.
And standing at a meeting is something that I have been doing at times where it would be more uncomfortable to sit. The meetings help me so much, as far as getting out of me. I need to do everyday, if I can.
So God's speed in this Physical Pain and being released from it.
i CAN TAKE RIGHT OF WRITING ABOUT ME . NEEDED TO GET ON HERE READ SOME POSTS***GET OUT OF ME MY PAIN MY FEELINGS. sOMETIMES THE BEST HEALER IS TO LISTEN AND REPLY. TALK TO ANOTHER ALKY. MAYBE EVEN TYPE TO ONE.
GOOD THREAD
ROBERT BEING ALONE CAN DO ME IN SOMETIMES. i need to call some recovering people or read up here.
I am quite pleased I have just been to a "friends" house who also suffers with a poor back, any way this person got package out of the drawer "here have this she said" what is it I replied. "Morphine" gosh I said I cant take that!! I am already on paracetomol and cant take things like that. Any ways as the night wore on I had this nagging thing in my head to take some of that stuff, I am just so glad that my HP was with me and I didnt, I knew there is a drink/drug out there that I wont get off and my illness wants me back there. WHen I got in I called my sponcer. her informs me that Morphine is one of the most addictive substances out there and I should not have taken any and he was glad I didnt. This person knows I am alcoholic, however I should not really blame this person because she was only trying to be helpful. Besides no one ever force fed me a drink/drug I always took on my own account and 99% of the time beyond what I am meant to take.
Any way I wanted to share that with you because I believe that I will recover as long as I am honest. I wanted so bad to slip away from reality tonight and that Morphine was a bridge to drinking I am sure, I need to be so careful.
Rob, I'm proud of you also. I have terrible migraines, years before I quit drinking, this old Doctor told me whatever I did, not to start taking the strong drugs for the headaches. He said I'd be addicted. I thank him to this day, sad thing is he died from cirrhosis,he never told me I should stop drinking.
To me recovery is about love. and for me to take a drug which is not prescribed to me is more abuse. I used to abuse prescribed drugs., there is no need anylonger. I am still taking pain killers but I am under the Drs care and I am no longer interested in taking more than what is prescribed.
