Well I think you hit the nail on the head, so to speak, medical procedure, mind altering meds.
That will do it everytime. Just drink a lot of water to get that stuff out of your system.
Amanda, everything is O.K., Everything is going to be o.k., O.K.???? Have you thought about getting to a Meeting and talking about it, you Know, it will take the Power Right out of it!
A big Hug from your friend and sister in Recovery,
Toni
This little guy is trying to tell you to just smile, walk thru it, to the other side of it, Ask Him for some help, God never lets us down, does He.
hi, Toni.... yeah.. time for a meeting. I am getting some things done this morning though. A friend came by early to help me. Thanks for 'being there' for me. Lots of water is a good idea. thanks.
It is a real springy day too.. 60's and sunny. I might try to go outside and relax a bit and then do some more painting
see yas later,
amanda
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Your pictures make such a great visualization, Cheered my, out here in California, Mother Nature has been yelling at us all night with Thunder, Hail Storms, even a little tornado. It feels just like the sky is yelling at us "Take this, you spoiled little brats on the Coast of Califonia", we are very spoiled, Weatherwise, and I know one Person, Phil, that would probably find some great comic relief, with the above. Thats that Canadian, that has spent most of this winter in Igloo style.
Spring like does sound like a great day, and I can see you on that cabana having a large icy glass of Water. Those paint brushes can be used for creating some art too, that is so very theraputic, especially when we are trying to get of, whatever it is, that is throwing you a curve ball.
aww thank you sooo much.. it's about 3 pm now. I really do do art work,, Ihave a cousin and an aunt that are professional artists. I sing and play a little keyboard too. So when I turn my stereo WAY UP, I am usually belting the song out too... great way to vent. ty jeannie for understanding that. It really does get kind of Janis Joplin sometimes.... waaa ahhhhh Come on and cry, cryyyyy babyyy yyy .... one reason the bedroom is taking so long to do.. you'd think I could just slap on a coat of one color of paint all over,, but noooo... I have the walls one color,, the closet doors are two contrasting colors... the walls are ice blue, the doors are white and dark green. I was going to do some stenciling on the centers of the doors,, but that will have to wait. Now I'm looking for brightly flowered curtains.
A maintenance man just came and looked at the leak in the kitchen... that room will be next... hmm.. the floor linoleum is a brick color,, the stove is a kind of dark copper color,,,, what color do you all think would be a good kitchen color?
I am actually having a good day. Sometimes it is a matter of getting through a down time that seems to be total reality at the moment. There is a saying... 'it is always darkest before the dawn'.. and I do try to remember 'this too shall pass' , but in the dark moments it seems like that's all there is. How many times, to tell the truth, I have actually been on the verge of committing suicide.... but here I am,, and I look at what I would have missed if I'd checked out,, and am glad I'm hanging in there. But I tell people I am not a steady light to the world,,, I am more like a flickering candle.
Thank you all so very much,,, for supporting me through my dark moments there till I got back into the light.
God bless you all,
amanda
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My vote would for a bright sunflower yellow, that color that is a deep yellow, with I think a little orange in it. And put it on in a rough matted texture. You might be saying YUK!, But I like Colors a lot. (Kind of like the Ralph Lauren look, it a smooth dull almost suede look.) I think it would compliment the brick and dark cooper nicely. And then put some copper pots hanging somewhere in you kitchen.
Just my little vote
Kind of like the color of this little face, more on the right side. Between his right eye and mouth!
HA HA HA HA! Well this sure ain't no MIP Recovery Post, with ES &H, but it sure was FUN!
Just a thought, what would do with the ceiling, leave it white?
uh huh,,, I see the blush on the smiley. yeah, prolly ceiling stay white. I could do the whole thing brick color,, and feel like I'm inside a brick oven, like a pizza place. Subway restaurants are bright yellow inside. not blue, huh? nope. I almost went crazy when picking out the color for the bedroom,,, those little patches in the stores look different in the room.
I had a good day after all... still so much to be done,,, but 2 people came today to help me with stuff.. first one, and then another,,, and one is coming back in a couple of days with his brother to help move furniture. I feel better physically today. And I do feel more balanced. I did have HALT,,, and Rick was right I had to STOP, and take care of myself and balance out.
Well,,, so,,, now.... onward, ho!
love in recovery,
amanda
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to the other side of it, Ask Him for some help, God never lets us down, does He.
and then do some more painting 
