"In the past, we made simple situations into problems; we made mountains out of molehills."Basic Text, p. 87
Making mountains out of molehills seems to be our specialty. Have you heard it said that to an addict, a flat tire is a traumatic event? Or how about those of us who forget all pretense of principle when confronted with a bad driver? And what about that can opener that won't work—you know, the one you just threw out the second story window? We can relate when we hear others share, "God, grant me patience right now!"No, it's not the major setbacks that drive us to distraction. The big things—divorce, death, serious illness, the loss of a job—will throw us, but we survive them. We've learned from experience that we must reach out to our Higher Power and others to make it through life's major crises. It's the small things, the constant day-to-day challenges of living life without the use of drugs, that seem to affect most addicts most strongly in recovery.When the little things get to us, the Serenity Prayer can help us regain our perspective. We can all remember that "turning over" these small matters to the care of our Higher Power results in peace of mind and a refreshed perspective on life.Just for today: I will work on patience. I will try to keep from blowing things out of proportion, and walk with my Higher Power through my day.
>>>>rosie>>>>>oh MAN can i relate to this.....big things??? i yell for help, get through SOMEhow.......but the little things?? only a couple of months ago, i had this "hp" printer/fax/scanner that kept refusing to print becuz it said "change cartridges" over and over...AFTER i changed the cartridges......i got sick of it, and blew UP.....i grabbed it up and walked to the front door of my house, opened the front door and i walked out into the driveway and i threw the thing as high up in the air as i could and watched as it went "smack" on the driveway, and smashed into a bunch of little pieces.......i felt sort of satisfied that i "killed it" than step 4 kicked in and i felt foolish as hell.....like "where WERE U 12 steps when i needed u???"......i felt stupid, immature, than i started the slogans....easy does it.....how important WAS it??? ....and the big one "progress over perfection"... after a lot of self talk about how i was running the show, NOT my i/c who still cannot STAND for things to not go her way, i was able to get myself balanced.......so i had to replace it and this time i bought one of those "if it messes up, u can come HERE and trade it in" warantees......so i did make amends, but had to laugh at the foolishness of it......how many small and even big gadgets have i sent to a very violent death cuz they wouldn't work!!! that is improving, but i need continuous work in that area......i just hate for some inanimate object or ANYthing for that matter to "get the best of me".....its like " u r going to WORK or u r going to DIE".....
>>>>>yep it is the SMALL, nickel dime crap that will throw me in a state.......when i was drinking/ bingeing, i could get past the stuff...numb my feelings, but now??? sober??? wow!!! i notice that the S prayer and slogans WORK if i USE them.....and yeah, i do believe with my addictive personality ( i could not escape being addictive with all the horror i went through and the resulting "shutting down" my feelings) until i do ALL my inner child pain work which i am doing...and thawing out ALL the old pain/ anger/ grief, i guess i am going to have trouble with and need my hp MORE for my addictions--- bingeing on food--- needing to control----forcing my will on events----fantasizing...i mean , really, this "daily" is reminding me that i really need to keep up my "God work" and to surrender my DAY on a DAILY basis to my hp and keep workin on the program AND walk w/ my HP throught the ENTIRE day......thanks, rosie
Yep I can relate. What was I going to smash last ? I Haven't had to do that in a good long time. Thank GOD. Got to be careful of the "get drunk over the broken shoe lace thing" Somedays things are just tuff. Draining and cleaning a hot tub right now. It's going good< because I'm here responding to you. EASY DOES IT ? I GUESS. I'M NOT EVEN DOIND IT !!
ha ! ha ! FEELS GOOD JUST SNICKERING TO MYSELF********KINDA SICK I GUESS
