HI ROB  ROBERT

HANG IN THERE BUDDY.

IT'LL GET BETTER

I'VE HAD THE BACK THING ON AND OFF FOR YEARS.

ALL THE TESTS**WON'T GO INTO ME

HOPE YOU GET BETTER

Hi there. can i just ask if the subject is acceptable? I feel maybe it would be classed as a high class problem? I dont know.

Rob

Hi Robert,

This Board and how to navigate is kind of tricky in the beginning, but I am So Glad you made a Post.

Bad neck problems from an old car accident, kicked in Big time last week, cannot take any aspirin, or Ibprophine, so I have to either stay up and out of a chair, where it will just compress spine and make things worse,  last week had to be in bed for a about a day, trying to rest it up, but now have to see a Doc again, about some Rehab. on it again.

But now that I am going to see the Doc this am, of course it is better.

Just wanted to put my stuff in here for the sake of "Misery Loves Company"  .

More than anything, I felt so relieved when I saw your Post, I think you are going to love this Board, it offerred me so much support when I needed it, and now really love the Board, for what it represents to this world, in Cyberspace.  A little cozy room, with so many wonderful people here, and a great place to air any woo's you might have.  brings a lot of comfort,  that my take.

Here is a little flower, to put on your table, to cheer you, while you go through all this Physical Discomfort.  Hope your Back is better very Soon.

Hi Robert-Rob,

I'm sorry about your back.I don't like it when the unexpected happens and life changes ...even for a few days. I understand cabin fever also... if it wasn't for the PC and the phone don't know what I would do somedays. I visit a message board for people with chronic pain because of the pain I experience and a message board for caregivers,it is a God sent...just to know there are people who understand how I am feeling. Just as this board is such a big part of my recovery.Even with 4 face to face meetings a week I need the encouragement I get here.

Step 3 ...Made a decision to turn our lives over to the care of God as we understood him.It sounds like you have 6 months of sobriety, that's great, do you have a home group? Fear is one of my number 1 enemies also....but it seems if I hand it over to God, He always takes care of it . It may not be in the way I think He should, but the surrender is the first step, acceptance that this is the way it is today, and faith that whatever happens is His will and He is getting me through it all.

Please keep posting. Praying that you have all you need for today. No matter what I will not pick up that first drink today, if I don't then I have done one thing right by Gods grace.

(((Hugs)))

GammyRose

Hello Rob. I understand to a certain extent what you're going through. I was admitted to the hospital 3 weeks ago with pancreantitis (because of drinking). After 11 days I was released and came home, I live alone, and drank again. I was then admitted for 7 days for the same thing and got home yesterday. I am not drinking now and am having a very hard time with this. I made a meeting this morning, very shaky still, but that made me feel better. If I drink again I can not say what will happen, but it will be devistating for me and my relationship with my family. I feel as though I am doing this to myself but I also know from past experience that if I can get through about 10 more days with no drink it will get easier. I am alone as well and my only support group is AA. I have to make meetings. Chatting also helps. I hope you get through your situation and stay sober. Help another alcoholic. Noel.

morning all! I have a wonderful CD that has just arrived in the post it is 34 hours of AA shares by all the usual speakers such as joe and charlie.

I have only just thought - I cant remember the last time I went to a meeting! I do not reccomend this BTW.

I have got to go back t ohospital and if I am honest with you, I am feeling alone. It was my birthday the otherday and I feel like a lead balloon now. I put on this brave face for show and now I am in complete isolation.

I do hope that somebody reads this and replys. .............................is there any other support I can get here - I have heard of some places where alcoholics can have a live chat.

I am hoping to do a meeting when I come out of hospital but I do not know how long I will be in for, I am going in at 4 today, I feel like these 4 walls are closing down on me!

Rob

Hi Robert and Noel,

Was reading this thread, and thought I might share some of the similiar feelings that are going on.

I have been trying to handle an old neck injury from a long time ago, that has recently raised its ugly head, and has given me a lot of physical pain,  it started about two weeks ago, and has been more or less unrelenting.

I got out of my closet, a traction device that I had had for many years, I had thought about selling it on eBay, when I noticed that they were selling for a lot of money.  I now Thank God that I did not sell it.  I took it to my Doctor's office yesterday, because I had forgotten how exactly to use it, I did not remember the Instructions for many years ago from a Phyical Therapist, and I was a little scared to use it without going over the instructions again.

Well my Doctor showed me yesterday, and said not to worry, it was designed to "not be injurious to anyone"  What a relief.  I brought it back home, found a place to put it where I can use it twice a day.

It is going to take some time I think, maybe a week or two to feel the benefits of its use.

I am telling you both this, because what I noticed was "setting in" around going thru this for about 2 weeks, was a depression, that I believe goes with untreated pain.  I moved to this area about 1 year ago, so I did not have access to my usual trusted Doctors and Physical Therapys that I was used to having.  But I finally said to myself, you have to take some action, if I wanted to get some help.

I have some time in this Program, so fortunately using Alcohol to numb any pain does not come up for me.  I have just tried stepping back and taking a look at the situation.  I am going thru some Physical Pain, it has turned into a compounded depression over it and the treatment I have decided to be very proactive, if the traction machine does not bring relief, in 1 week then I will go to Rehab Therapy, for some more help.

I talked about this somewhat new chronic pain being so restrictive yesterday in a meeting, and it was amazing to me how many people in the room talked about "managing their own chronic pain".  it facinated me, they did not LOOK  LIKE they had chronic pain. But I have to tell there was a deep sense of relief, it cut right through that Isolation that accompanies chronic pain. So today, I take responsibilty for letting myself get into this stuff.  I personally believe for me, if I had sought help two week ago, I would be on the mend.

Isolation can and does go away, with the Process of Sharing, I know when I came home from that meeting,  I was not so much aware to the pain, as I was a new burst of Spiritual renewal was how I felt.  The Power of some of the Meetings in AA can have a great deal to do with HOW I preceive pain.

Pain is Transitory, even when we think its not.  It will come and it will go, just like the emotional pain I went through about 3 and a half months ago with the sudden loss of a very Beloved Pet.  The Pain was excuiating.  Walked thru it, and had to keep walking thru it, praying to God to help with it on a daily, 24 hour, sometimes 60 minutes in an hour basis.    Today, I miss my beautiful darling Annie, but the sharp pain of her sudden death is GONE.  I walked right through the middle of it to the other side, with His Help.

And I need to remember that Process, asking God to help me now with this Physical Pain.  The BIGGEST Problem is not the pain itself, but my FEAR that it will never go away. I could finally see yesterday, when we were talking unknown fears, there is was, the Big Problem, I was afraid that it was not going to go away.    Big Education for this Alcoholic yesterday.

I am sitting a very soft pillow this morning Robert, so I can relate to your fear of sitting for 8 hours at your job.  That is a Justified fear, but I believe it is a problem, just like all problems in Recovery, that has a SOLUTION.

So if you want you can send me a PM and I will give you my email addy. If you think that might help - to talk to someone going through and fighting the same problems - chronic pain and Isolation - a very unpleasant combination - but a temporary problem - with a solution. Noel, the same goes for you Dear.  We walk through this, because it is the ONLY thing we can do.

There are good times, and there are bad times in this Recovery Process, but we have the tools to get through, Powerlessness over situation, turning the Problem over to His Will, and asking for Guidance in Prayer.

I trust what i have learned in the 12 steps of Recovery, using the first 3 Steps on this Problem.  And am actually looking forward to "looking Back" at this Temporary Problem.  I do trust that that will happen.  I will continue to mention the pain I am experiencing in the meetings, for one reason only, it takes the Power out of the Pain and the Fear around the Pain.

A very dear Therapist taught me to walk right through the middle of what is going on, staying right there with the feelings, and that there is a God given promise that they will turn into another feeling, for the better.  It has worked for me for several years, and I will continue to keep on keeping on.

Sorry, I do have the skill to put my thoughts into a more condensed form, use too many words, but I am working on that too.

God Bless you both in your struggles.

Love, Toni

Im sorry for the previous Post - I do care. what I meant is I am afraid of losing the will to care.

could you please explain in pratical terms:" A very dear Therapist taught me to walk right through the middle of what is going on, staying right there with the feelings, and that there is a God given promise that they will turn into another feeling, for the better.  It has worked for me for several years, and I will continue to keep on keeping on"

Again sorry for the negitive post I am tired and that is the last thing i lookf for when things are wrong.

I shall go to bed. I have a document I would like to send you if you mail me robertgreco5@aol.com