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This Mouse must give up one of the Mouse ways of seeing things in order that he may grow. --Hyemeyohsts Storm
There is an American Indian tale of a mouse who heard a roaring in his ears and set out to discover what it was. He encountered many animals who helped him on his way. Finally, the mouse had a chance to offer help to another. He gave away his eyes to help two other animals. Without his sight, defenseless, he waited for the end. Soon he heard the sound eagles make when they dive for their prey. The next thing the mouse knew, he was flying. He could see all the splendor around him. Then he heard a voice say, "You have a new name. You are Eagle." Like the mouse, we also feel something inside us we'd like to explore. That secret, like all others, has its answer hidden deep within us, yet right under our very nose. Often, we merely have to give up our eyes and see in a different way. When we do this, we are rewarded with a new kind of vision, one that lets us discover our true potential.How can I look at things differently today?
>>>>rosie>>>>>i had to do this re: steps 6, 7.....i was "over looking" these very important steps...like keeping the problem, NOT giving it over....or giving it and taking it back......fear....fear my god will let me down like my other "protectors" on earth did...fear i will be dropped and fall off the cliff, i am hanging onto by my fingernails......... seeing god through sick eyes......so i had to get new eyes, give up the old ones, so i could see god in a diferent way....its scary...giving up to god....giving over the outcome, but i wasn't in control anyway, so why not????? it saves me the "racing mind" the "scrambling" that has dogged me for so many decades......i am making it a PRACTICE to do my "step 6-7" work in prayer / meditation each night....in the am , when i get up, i "give over my day to my higher power----THY will , not mine be done"......
I really like this meditation and your thoughts. It is not only "scary...giving up to god....giving over the outcome" it is flat out terrifying. But you are SO right, I am not in control anyway, so why not try a different way... anything is better than this. I just don't know how to give it up. I struggle with the issue of "powerlessness" and I am SO filled with resentments that I know are blocks to my recovery and my connection with my higher power... I just don't know how I am ever going to get there... to see a different way. How will I ever get to a place where I "willingling die to self" and believe in a "will" I can't grasp? However Rosie, I just want to say your shares have given me the hope to keep trying. Thank you for that.
