but, sorry I don't. My husband is a jerk. right now I just hate him completely. He hates me too. I'll just turn to my journal now, that usually helps some.
Michelle,Sorry you are having a hard time with the husband tonight. Did you read Toni's post below about the woman? It might make you laugh a little or not...
Journaling always helps me, get it out and then start over tomorrow.
Pray over it-that usually helps me. Pray for your husband, too. IF I ask God to help me stand being around someone, he somehow makes it OK. But I do have to ask God to help my attitude, or I tend to just stay angry or scared or whatever. And I'll pray for both of you myself. It's no fun to hate anyone you live with or have to be around very much. I hope you can feel better soon.
well.. sometimes we have sad and angry thoughts... and they are difficult to deal with. We can't always feel like we like someone,, even someone we love very much is going to irritate us sometimes.. That's all part of life. Everyone has moments when they are jerks.
Are you working the Steps Michelle? Step 1 is that we are powerless over people, places and things, including alcohol. Steps 2 and 3 are where we turn them over to God, and put ourselves in His care.
The Serenity Prayer - God, grant us the serenity.... to accept the things we cannot change.... the courage to change the things we can.... and the wisdom to know the difference.
Sometimes things feel very hopeless,,, we get overwhelmed, and we don't know how to cope with things in a way that will be constructive,,, especially when it seems we are not getting cooperation. But, as someone else said, prayer, Step 11,,, does help us get through,,, and sometimes it's amazing how God works things out... not always the way WE want,,, but in ways even wiser.
God bless you, Michelle, a moment at a time,
love in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
I was told I could choose to be happy. This is real hard at first but with time and the steps it becomes a little eaiser. Amanda said it. POWERLESS OVER PEOPLE PLACES AND THINGS.
UNTIL I ACCEPT WHAT IS HAPPENING AS THE WAY IT IS. I HAVE NO PEACE.
SOMEDAYS THE WORLD CAN BOUNCE OFF MY CHIN **GIVE ME WHAT U GOT**I CAN HANDLE IT TODAY ( SPIRITUALY FIT )
OTHERS DAYS **I CREPE AND CRAWL** IF I CAN GET OUT OF ME AND MY PROBLEMS THE DAY USUALLY TURNS AROUND.
SO FAR A GREAT DAY***HUMMM-------MAYBE BECAUSE I'M HERE ON THIS BOARD AND DID A BUNCH OF READING THIS AM** SPIRITUAL ADN PROGRAM
Werner Erhart came up with a thought once, that I've always tried to keep in this brain of mine.
Happiness....................................Only a Decision Away.
Practicing this one is not easy, but it does keep it simple for me. Some days not possible in any way, too clouded up with the other negative emotions, fear, fear, and more fear. For me all of the other emotions can be translated into.... only one..... fear.
When I am upset and angry, I will talk about it in a meeting, and feel the Power of the Resentment.....kind of evaporate.
Meetings seem to always bring me back to a stronger "Sense" of Faith in my life, Faith will win, repeatedly, because Fear and Faith cannot Co-exist in this heart of mine.
And sometimes it comes down to Faith in A.A., the Program that saved me from the wreached life I lived before Alcoholics Anonymous.
Hope today is a better day for you.
Have you tried any meetings? Your city has some great meetings, that is where I celebrated my first year in Recovery, and have an incredible memory of how much those meeting were there for me, when I was going through a difficult time. Don't remember the bad stuff, only remember the happiness of how good it was to be Sober for a Year. A true MIRACLE in this Alcoholic's life.
I just wanted to ad something I just remembered. The Alano Club in your city, is like No other Alano Club.
It burned to the ground one year, (from a smoker, of course), and they asked the members there to do the remodeling.
Well, it was then (15 years ago) Like something you would see in a magazine. Cut Crystal glass windows, and the main entry, and meeting rooms were something any decorator would have been proud of. And these alcoholic's that did the redecorating did an AMAZING Job. I have been to several Alano Clubs on the West Coast, and nothing compares to the one where you live, you should check it out. A very class act.
