Toni I went thru losing 3 dogs and a cat. The first dog I had to put down. I beat myself up for a long time. Was it time?? Even though the vet said it was. The pain is unreal. I couldn't eat for days, then it was for ever before I could eat Pizza or Ice cream. They reminded me to much of my buddy. I feel a little pain as I write and I buried him in 1992. They are our best friends. I read up late on some of the posts. I am very very sorry for your loss. All i can tell u from experience is that u need a new pet to give u some love. I won't go into dog 2. Dog 4,Ellie only made it about 3 months with us, just long to fall madly in love with her. Tia dog 3 is sleeping in my bed right now. That should tell u my love for animals. I tell people if u don't like my animals or how they live in MY HOUSE just don't visit. I also lost a cat this summer. Just turned up missing. As we waited and prayed time went on. Our old cat just sat and looked out the door for him. We came to terms. He had a great life,he played with the horses and the 2 dogs. He hunted every day, came in and out as he pleased. I have to belive he's hunting a better place now. Ellie came in a great time of need, I had bad depression and she was a light in the dark. There for the time I really needed her. Oh by the way, I never wanted it cat. they both appeared at my door. Tia is adopted and so was Ellie.
You really got me thinking.
I am fortunate.
Chris**What's it worth** As i said in another post**MONEY MONEY MONEY.
My dad died and I coundn't believe some things that went on.
I just let it go**no war and that's what it could have been.
No large amounts involved, but it certainly wasn't fair.
My mom is still alive. I dread the day she passes, I can't even imagine what might go on.
I have to pick my battles carefully.
Zoomie** Sorry about your sponsor** Just one of the reasons we need a support network.
I guess I was told that people fail you and they die. That dosen't mean it dosen't hurt.
Best to you**share your hurt at meetings.
Take care of u for now.
Amanda**This apartment thing has benn going on a while. I rember sharing on it before.
I am a landlord !! I never treated anybody like that. ( drunk or sober)
IF possible**if it were me** I would try to move**
That may stop the next problem before it occurs.
I paint for my tenants or hire it. Whats the deal ?? You pay rent !
I know the stress and they Alocoholic thinking.
The other day I found myself whipping a wrench. It was because things didn't go as I wanted or expected. The battery in the dumptrailor was dead, the jack didn't work and I couldn't get it hooked up. I had some work to get done and it wasn't happening. I had to slow down, take a look at me, that was the alcoholic* Rick. I had to say sorry to my wife for acting like that.
I took a breather, got the trailor on and headed out back. Shut the truck off and it wouldn't start. I just laughed and called the tow truck. S__T happens out of my control