Thank you all for all the wonderful advise. Please keep it coming. I am doing all that you suggested. Thank you. If anyone is on "yahoo", or "aim", if you have screen names I would love to shat sometime.
Read your post from below...hang in there! It'll all work out for you the way your HP wants it to. Definitely find some women in your AA group and get thier phone numbers so you can call them when you are feeling down. And use them when you need to talk, that's why we give them out.