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Sometimes it takes some of us a delayed reaction time, before we come to certain realizations,


and "Click" another light bulb goes off.  I had that happen today. Just something that I did not


 fully understand that was happening in a relationship. Was up all night searching for answers--


conveyd my thoughts about a few things in a couple emails--and a light bulb went off in my


head part way through the day, about something that I was doing wrong and didnt understand.


 The light bulb lit up and I came to a realization, about what I needed to change. And not


 someone else had to change. This relationship is a major part and priority in my life


I sent an apoligy email to the other person,but it might be too late--Im just physically and


 emotionally sick over it. I guess all I can do is Pray to a Higher Power about it and hope that


they will forgive me for what I wrote.The last week and a half has been a real rough one in a


few areas of


 


my life. But at least its been a growing pain period.


Some of us are slow learners in some areas. And Im usually one who comes from the "School Of Hard Knocks."


 


Had another situation with medical stuff--thats back on track, thank God, that was nothing more than neglect on my part.


And this morning I had to charge an employee with theft, which Ive been putting off doing for some time.


It has not been a good day. I think Ile just retire for the rest of the day, and try to catch up on some rest.


Thanku for letting me share guys.


 


 


 


 



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Hi Phil,


Thinking of you today and sending you all my love. I've been doing the same thing...expecting my husband to read my mind and know what i want. For the past month I have been building up resentment because he's not doing what I think he needs to do. The other night I realized that whatever place he's in right now, that's where Creator wants him to be and it will work out in it's own time, not mine. But I've been a class A bitch and now I owe an amendment, which I was trying to forget til I read your post and remembered that.


Don't get sick over it...claim temporary insanity.


Love you, cheri 



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Hey Phil, Did I ever screw-up big time , are we talking today or yesterday. Yes I have , even in the years I've been in AA and Al-anon. The beauty of it is now I reconize when I have and know when I need to make an amend. I also know that after I do it,it is up to the other person to do what they will with it.


The courage for me to change has been one of my hardest lessons to learn , it just seems so much easier if everyone else would do it my way. I have had to make amends to my husband since he's been out of the half-way house and he is having no part of it today. Soooooo I will just let God deal with it and do the best I can for today.


You are in my prayers  and I read something last night about sometimes we just need to sit back and relax, and let the world revolve without us for a bit. How is that waterfall my friend? Is it still there?Are there flowers blooming in Canada yet, the TX wildflowers are beautiful this year, we had a lot of snow.


Be well, and serene .


(((Hugs)))


GammyRose



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Hey buddy,


Sorry about your troubles, I hate when you get hard on yourself when you give so much.  We make mistakes and why cause we are human.  I am sure that things will work out.


Just reciently I had to realize my part in my current relationships and I do expect people to read my mind and I can be not be forthcoming at all. Do to ego and fear duh. Atleast we are learning and getting past things by doing better or saying sorry. THANK GOD


I love you and hope all the best for you and yours



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