Nothing is more difficult than competing with a myth. -- Francoise Giroud
Sometimes we think we need to try and be something we're not. Maybe we feel pressure from friends to behave or dress like someone else. All we need to do is remember when we were younger and dressed in our parents' clothes and shoes. We pretended to be grownups, and it was fun for a while. Then the huge shoes on our feet grew clumsy and uncomfortable and the mountain of rolled-up sleeves kept falling down and getting in the way. Soon we grew tired of the game and stopped pretending. Today when we start feeling the pressure to be someone else, let's remember how hard it is to play a role that doesn't fit us.
i was the kid who got teased and spent many many days wishing that i was someone else. had always felt as if i was pointless on this earth. well at any rate i drank and drugged at myself and enjoyed being some one else if even for a few hours at a party. well we all know where that took me considering where i am posting this.
never before since i have been working this program have i felt acceptance for myself. i no longer wish that i am anyone else and have a freedom that i never thought that i would ever be blessed with. lord knows that god has been so kind to me and all i had to do is be honest with myself about me and know that i am human. i never in 36 years would i have dreamed that i would find happiness and be sober.
i feel sometimes that i got a great deal and i have to not flaunt it or it will be taken from me. like a kid who finds a cool toy and there is no one around to find the owner of it so they take it home and stays quiet. god has been so kind to me and he came into my life and saved me from myself and there are no words to explain my gratitude except to not pick up a drink or a drug--in the grand scheme of things i think that is a small price to pay.
By the grace of god, i'm sober. Now it's not a drinking problem, but a thinking problem. As I'm told I'm just plain to tough on myself!! Thank God the depression dosen't last!! This too will pass!! My words yesterday!! And it did, feel good (great) today. Great to be part of this board.
