We used to depend on drinking for a lot of things. We depended on drinking to help us enjoy things. It gave us a "kick". It broke down our shyness and helped us to have a "good time". We depended on drinking to help us when we felt low physically. If we had a toothache or just a hangover, we felt better after a few drinks. We depended on drinking to help us when we felt low mentally. If we'd had a tough day at work or if we'd had a fight with our loved one, or if things just seemed against us, we felt better under the influence of alcohol. For us alcoholics, it got so that we depended on drinking for almost everything. Have I gotten over that dependence on drinking?
Meditation for the Day ~
I believe that complete surrender of my life to God is the foundation of serenity. God has prepared for us many mansions. I do not look upon that promise as referring only to the after-life. I do not look upon this life as something to be struggled through, in order to get the rewards of the next life. I believe that the Kingdom of God is within us and we can enjoy "eternal life" here and now.
Prayer for the Day ~
I pray that I may try to do God's will. I pray that such understanding, insight, and vision shall be mine and shall make my life eternal, here and now.
Hazelden
(Let it be a God or Higher Power of your own understanding)
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Thanks D, Somewhere in my head its flying around that I drank, just to drink. Period..I'd have days occasionally where I would be bummed out or upset and I would drink, but for the most part it was just a habit. I just plain old liked alcohol! I dont think I drank to fit in or to cover something from my past up, at least I didnt think so.... Come home from work, husband and friends on the deck having a few cold ones, I'd join in, have a few, bbq something and run the kids around.
Of course after a year or two of doing this I started making bad choices and doing things I would have never done had I not been drinking. Then, Id be over my head with problems that eventually caused me to drink more to ignore or numb my bad choices.......
Thats when it all started to not be fun anymore.....
Huh, just a thought........So for me, in order to stay out of trouble, I just need to not pick up in the first place...
Lani
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