Hey y'all, I'm going a million miles a minute again tonight... so I'm sorry I know I'm gonna ramble a bit... I really try not to... my friends tell me it's ok cuz they know I can't help it lately but I think it bothers ME more than anyone else lol
I went to the meeting down here in MS tonight, it's my homegroup now... I realized my homegroup was too far away, and my last sponsor was too, and I can't afford to drive out there, so I had to make some changes.... I got my new sponsor last night, and she's great... somethin just told me she was the right one, I'd been thinkin about asking her.
but anyway... we had a business meeting tonight... controversy over if we should make it non-smoking cuz one of our members has COPD, we've been discussing this amongst ourselves outside of the meeting for the past month, so it came up tonight...
I'm a little proud of myself actually, I actually spoke up... and had solutions for if we made it non-smoking... cuz I'm a smoker but I think it should be non-smoking but one smoker there was real upset with the idea... some of their concerns were the newcomers coming in and wanting to smoke during the meeting... so I told them in my old homegroup I started at, at the nonsmoking meetings someone would grab me halfway thru the meeting and say "hey let's go smoke" so I wouldn't feel awkward going out by myself... another option is to make the meeting longer with a break in the middle... Most everyone in this meeting has mostly only been to meetings in this area, rural area, and mostly smoking meetings... so my friend had told me to speak up tonight with those ideas....
Well, we voted and the majority agreed on non-smoking meetings, then we agreed to make it an hour and fifteen minutes long with a fifteen minute break... then we decided to add another meeting on Mondays and have it smoking... AND... I volunteered to chair that meeting thru next month! plus I'm going early on Mondays to help the guy that opens the building, with coffee and stuff... he wouldn't give up his position of opening up the building, but an oldtimer said he needs to let a couple of us with less time at least come help out and do stuff...
I realized that the only time I feel mostly sane lately is when I'm around AA folks, whether that's hanging out with them or going to meetings, or even just the chatroom I go to or posting on here... so I'm tryin to throw myself into AA right now as much as I can. gawd if I could go to meetings 'round the clock I would right now... lol
Sorry... that's my rambling for tonight... y'all helped me stay sane for just a bit by letting me post that lmao Really though, I'm surprised y'all can even read my long ramblings, but I just can't slow down right now and it really does help me rambling when I'm like this... so thanks for listenin and being here for me...
Hi Lisa, Energy expended in positive ways.......GOOD FOR YOU!!!! Thoughts will be with you this next month as you chair meetings. The smoking thing.....here in Illinois smoking is now ban from ALL public buildings....up to and including such places as bars. (One can go outside, but has to be 15ft. from door/ entrance.) Laughed the other night.....news.....approx. 700 already arrested for breaking this law. HOWEVER....one waitress at a small diner was making TONS of tips just hauling coffee out the back door to regulars who smoke! (Perhaps an addition of a sort of drive through window. LOL.) Best to you in your endeavors. Wanda
Hey all: Being a smoker myself, I still wonder why we cant go without a cig break for one hour!! I tend to smoke on the way in , on the way out! My hometown is none smoking EVERYWHERE!
Anyways, keep up the good work Lisa! Lani
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Thanks y'all, I'm feelin pretty good about getting more involved, and I know it'll help me, and I hope chairing meetings I might have somethin to say, a topic or whatever, that will help someone else... Tonight I'm dead tired... I slept 9 hours, but I have bags under my eyes, I think I'm not sleeping good cuz of my ears, I dunno. My ear that's giving me problems was bothering me last night and has been all day today. I was going to go to a meeting tonight, but decided I need to stay home and rest and get to bed early (and stop fighting sleep lol). I'm going to my friend's tomorrow to do some computer work that they already paid me for, they're trying to help me out with money and they're wanting their computers networked, which I started on, but now I gotta fix one of their daughters' computer. So hoping I can rest well enough tonight so I'll feel up to going tomorrow cuz I didn't feel up to it today...
Wanda, they just passed that law in TN not long ago, our meetings up there went nonsmoking if they weren't already... but I've been told they're not really enforcing it unless someone complains, like at Starbucks, the patios don't reach 20ft from the door, but you can still smoke on the patio there lol
Lani, I know what you mean... I can go an hour if it's a nonsmoking meeting... but I'll admit I was smoking still even though I knew this guy in there has COPD, because everyone else was smoking in there... if I'm around people smoking, I can't help it, I gotta smoke... I think my smoking addiction is even worse than my alcoholism lol But it all worked out so that everyone's happy, or mostly happy... so it's all good :)
I always have to laugh when AA's want to complain about smoking, meetings......as two thoughts pop into my mind...1)The smoke never bothered them in the BAR! and 2) "go to ANY lengths......".
LOL
Congrats on the service work, Lisa...... Woo Hoo!
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Doll, I love that, I never thought of that... that they didn't mind it when they were drinking in the bar! I read that while I was at my "adopted mom's" house and started laughin, and read it to her, she totally agreed. But we worked it all out where I think everyone is mostly happy...
Tonight is our first new Monday night smoking meeting and I'm chairing!!! I'm excited, but the more it hits me that I'm chairing tonight, the more nervous I get... but I know it'll be ok, I chaired for the first time a couple weeks ago at my old homegroup, and it went fine... think I just get a little scared about the focus will be on me for a bit at the beginning and end of the meeting, and I'm hoping I come up with a good topic, but once I'm there and doing it, I will be ok... or I was last time anyway. Just my anxiety problems playing tricks on me and telling me something will go wrong.... but I know it will be good and even if I mess up with something, sometimes people who have been there for years still mess up something, it's no big deal. Just me worrying over nothing lol
Hey Lisa, Great your getting involved. Let your HP do the talking! Open your mind and listen....Easy for me to say! Ive only chaired once!!!!! We do temas so the pressure is off a bit! Good luck! Lani
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plus I'm going early on Mondays to help the guy that opens the building, with coffee and stuff... he wouldn't give up his position of opening up the building, but an oldtimer said he needs to let a couple of us with less time at least come help out and do stuff...