i found this website about a year ago, i was looking for online support and found this one, never wrote in, just knew i needed some help. i haven't had a drink or a line of coke since feb 1997, but i have been on and off weed the for ten years, until i finally hit my "real" bottom, march 27, 2007. i started going to meetings again and have been really and truly sober for the first time, ever, because somehow i figured out how to surrender completely. and then i started to practice prayer and build a connection with my Higher Power, wow, what ride the last 9 months have been.
The love relationship that i was in when i hit bottom did not survive, my lover was a user and i was no longer attracted to that, it was more complicated than that, obviously. i have had a hard time with the "moving on" process and hit a wall of pain today that left me feeling breathless and full anger. So first i journaled and then i remembered this website and i clicked on and read Carol's words about "Moving On" and i have to thank you Carol because your words supported me and lifted me right into a different perspective. Thank you for being there and your service to this board.
Welcome to MIP, Deb. Moving on, it's what makes the journey a journey. Letting go of things along the way, to make room for the new, sometimes hurts. But once it's really let go, it won't hurt any more. For me, I will really believe I've let something go, and some trigger will come along and I"ll grab that puppy back by the short hairs and just beat myself to death with it. So for me it's a reaccuring action--accept and release, accept and release.......Looking forward to your shares, and I"m glad you joined us. be blessed, Chris
Welcome!!!!! What a great way to start the new year!!! Lani
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