Ok friends, Remind me why I dont want to drink!!!! Having a bad day! Yelled at my daughter, told her shes self centered because all;'s I ever do is run her around and she talks back at me.... Yelled at husband, because everytime I ask him a question I feel like he;'s jumping down my throat....Dont even want to talk to him cuz I feel I can never say anything right!
Grumpy because I want to go shopping.... Grumpy because the playstation game I want isnt available,,,,,Bid on one at ebay...Shoot it went for 360 dollars...Whats that about!
Oh and by the way, have PMS again.......Grumpy because didnt I just friggin have it!!!! Yea its gratitute list time!
But as I was in the shower I thought how great a drink sounded... Told myself "oh, is it worth it" "merry xmas family, Im drunk" Go to a damn meeting...which I will do in a second!!!! How fragile I am right now.... Not at all in the best mood! Grumpy because Im grumpy..... Will make a list after meeting...Just needed to vent and know that all of you would remind me why I cant drink again!!!!
Shit, shit shit!!!! (oh my gosh, I think Im manic!) Helps to read this back and no how stupid Im being!!!!! Lani
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There are so many reasons why you don't need to drink. But, the main one is that it won't make anything better and you'll just feel worse having taken a drink. You are doing so well.
Just hang in there and get to a meeting and tell people how you are feeling. We've all been there. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
(((Hugs)))
Carol
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Thanks guys, Just got back from a meeting....Heard what I needed "old behaviors" was the topic. Love this noon group.Right where I needed to be. Got to share and as they say....it was halved!!!! Still feeling grouchy, but not as insane! My gosh, it just crept up my butt like you cant believe! Phil hit it on the head!!! So, plan on forging ahead with my day! Love you!!!!!!!!!! Lani
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Hi Lani, I'm a bit late to the party, can I yell at you anyway lol j/k. Lani this may sound stupid but I have to be careful to watch my temper several days before a full moon til it passes. that would be now until right around Christmas. How convienent huh? I got one of the clocks that show the moon phase and try and lay low til it passes.
That's what you have to do when you feel the way you do right now. Just go relax somewhere with a hobby, listen to music, go to a meeting. You can't change your daughter or your husband, only the way that you relate/respond to them. You can forget about the teenager, youre just furniture to her for a few years. You're someone who severly limits her freedom and doesn't give her near enough money. At least you can negotiate with the husband once cooler heads prevail, like when he wants something lol.
Drinking? what's that? go play frisbee with the dog or something.
Thanks Dean...I did need some "friendly" yelling at today! OK, Im not blaming PMS anymore, its the algorhythms (?) from the bloody (oops) full moon!!!! I did admit, and apoligize to spouse and daughter for my behavior.....even if I felt I was right in my head!! (heehee) Did do what you suggested and felt sooo much better! Dang it, where were you when I needed you!!!!LOL Joni, we can blame it on this Ohio weather right!!!! And yes....God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!!! Thanks for being there you guys! You REALLY dont know how much it means to me!
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!!! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!!! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!!! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference!!!!!!
So, a man in todays meeting shared: He was sad, had to put wife in a nursing home..Went to see her today..she responded,"he did come!" During the visit she said she didnt want him to leave. He said, "think of it like went we were dating. Id visit, we'd have a lovely time and Id leave and you'd go to bed." She said, "You know, we should get married" He replied, but dear , weve been married 49 years" She says: "oh, Im so glad were married!!" So sad but oh so sweet!!!!!! Brought tears to my already wet eyes but surely put things in perspective!!! Love ya's, Lani
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Hi All......Just to let you know.....Hit two meetings today and feel soooo much better. Shoot, scary stuff! But here I am....Fresh and sober! Know that it all might hit the fan again but if I made it today with the tools I have, I can face any challenge!!!! Its nice to know I can share my ups and downs and as I learned in the meetings today...I am not alone! From the encouraging words of others to the shares of people that are right where I am!
Im not the only freaked out, jonesin', hyper, ADHD, psycho, lunatic, spacey, crazed person out there!!! Welcome to the real life!!!! One that I am totally prepared to face today with the help of my HP and all of Bill's friends!!! We are blessed my friends!!!!
Lani-("Suzie lou who" wanna be!!!)
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