In the morning I'm calling the apartment complex my sponsor lives in... gov't housing, income-based... and hopefully will be going up there to see about getting into them... really been praying about this, because I don't see any other options right now. My sponsor knows of 2 apartments next to her that are open, and she thinks there are others also... so I'll be right there near her which will be good, and I'll be just a few minutes from my homegroup, and closer to a lot of good meetings, and actually in a town which will be easier on me cuz driving is still hard on me...
And these apartments allow pets... but my sponsor doesn't know if they have restrictions, like size or breed restrictions... and I know in Memphis no apartments allowed german shepherds even if they were mixed breed. She said if I say my dog is a therapy dog, maybe they'd allow her though, and especially if I got my dr to say I need her, which my dr probably would... She really in a way is a therapy dog... it sounds silly I guess but she really helps me get through a lot, not sure how I'd handle it if I couldn't have her.
Having to make a really tough decision... I think I'm going to look for a home for my 2 kittens... I can't afford to get their shots or spaying, and they also have worms that I haven't been able to get rid of, they keep giving them back to each other and my dog, they need to all go to the vet for that and I just can't afford it. When I got them I'd been hoping I'd have a job real soon, that was right before my back went out... and if I can't take care of their health, then they deserve a better home... I just hate to give them up though I can get my dog's worms cleared up with the pills from walmart I'm sure... I've heard those work good. But my dog's cleared up before and the cats gave them back to her. *sigh*
Yesterday I went and got money orders to pay all my bills, mostly credit cards that I haven't been paying on cuz I haven't been able to... Then realized paying all of them, I won't get through the month... my sponsor suggested I cash the money orders myself, take care of only what I really need to (utilities, rent, phone, car insurance, etc) and leave the rest until later, get my credit card accounts frozen and tell them I will pay what I can when I can as soon as I get out of the bind I'm in... which is what I'd been thinking about doing already but was worried I shouldn't... my credit is already totally screwed, and I already have things in collections... if the credit cards go to collections too, well, I'll just deal with it then I guess.
A friend of mine is suggesting I start really looking for a job... my sponsor is advising against it, especially not till I do the physical therapy and get my back better... but she's not sure I can handle working yet, and I really don't think I can either... my anxiety has been so bad lately, I'm fine at meetings usually, but even just going shopping and stuff I get really anxious, I'm not handling being around people at all. And the reason I haven't had a job last more than 3 days in the past few years is because the anxiety was so bad I couldn't work through it. Maybe when things settle down a bit.... I dunno.
I'm worn out, only been getting 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night for the past few nights, and it's catchin up to me... gonna try to get up at 9 in the morning cuz I got so much I need to take care of tomorrow... but Saturday, planning to just sleep till I wake up, I really need that. Think it's just been all the stress... usually I don't have a problem staying asleep, but been waking up after only an hour or so of dozing, then unable to go back to sleep for hours... ugh...
If I can get into these apartments, it will take a whole lot of stress off of me though... say some prayers for me if ya don't mind
Hi Girls... I have to say I really agree with Doll on this Lisa...Mostly for your mental well being! Getting out a little might brighten your spirits for one thing! You sound like youve got some good plans brewing. Do what YOU think is best for you. It kinda reminds me of my husband. He hates his job and can certainly get something he likes...But, his sponser says no changes in the first year...Dont agree with that totally because if its for the better, how can it be wrong. I know (I KNOW) a new job is stressful and in my case I didnt have a choice, but if the work he's doing now brings him down I certainly think a change would be good....Good to hear from you! Lani
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A good thing to do is try volunteer work first to see how you do. I tried it and found I couldnt work for real. A suggestion is all this is. I love all you ladies! I look forward to morning to read all that you have and I get so much good stuff here! Wish you all posted during the day too but the morning dose is good enough. Love in the Fellowship of the Spirit, Allison
Lisa, you have prayers coming your way. Your sponsor sounds like a wise person indeed. And I especially pray that the apartment will allow you to have your German Shepherd there. I love my Norwegian Elkhound (pictured in my icon) so much I could never be without her. So many prayers coming your way today, friend!
Joni
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I can't afford to get their shots or spaying, and they also have worms that I haven't been able to get rid of, they keep giving them back to each other and my dog, they need to all go to the vet for that and I just can't afford it. When I got them I'd been hoping I'd have a job real soon, that was right before my back went out... and if I can't take care of their health, then they deserve a better home... I just hate to give them up though 