Welcome to MIP, Marie. I'm so sorry to hear about your situation there. It must have been such a shock & still affecting you now. It will probably take all your strength & energy to come to terms with this & that's where gaining as much help as you can will come into its own. I know you know drinking isn't a positive answer for you & drinking on such emotions may well be frustrating you further & deferring your agony again & again but not taking it away. I guess there's no short cut through this. I hope you feel you can gain some support from sharing with us here while you plan a route forward. I'm really glad you felt you could ask & I hope you get something of what you need. Thanks for being here, Marie. I hope some of the suggestions above work out for you. Let us know how it's going, won't you? Have the best day that you can for now, Marie. Danielle x
Ps. Your other post is here. I've repeated this in case you missed it again!
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