Hi again. I was in AA rooms 4 years ago and was sober for 10 months. I made a big realisation and a big mistake whilst there. My realisation was that there are a lot of sick people in the rooms and not everybody is as friendly as you say (im sorry but had a lot of probs with some lady who decided she didnt like me and turned up at every meeting i went to causing trouble for me). My mistake was not going back and going out there again after 10 months sobriety and ended up in a place 10 times worse than I was at then but this time I am going to put myself first and not let ANYBODY drive me away from these meetings. My sobriety means my life and nobody is worth giving that up for. Thank you for the kind message. It really helped. I had very little self esteem last time and have even less now but this time is a lot more serious and I cant let anybody make me so I want to give up.
I have just re-read my message and feel I need to clarify it. The lady that took a dislike to me was a 13 stepper, she was in the meetings it seemed simply for that. She took a like to a male AA friend of mine when she came to AA and although I was in a long term relationship she decided she didnt like us being friends and caused trouble or made me feel uneasy at every meeting. Also she copied everything I did, it was quite weird, if i cut my hair or coloured it, the next meeting hers was exactly the same and she followed me everywhere. It got pretty scarey. Too much to cope with at the time but not this time.
Some ARE sicker than others.....It's a fact.....got em in my HG too. 13th steppers, predators, mental patients and 1 guy wasn't even an alcoholic, he just liked the attention he got and the free coffee and snacks (no kidding)!
Last year I got 'hoodwinked' by some long time recoverees. They needed a job I needed some work done around my house....$2500 later I still need most of the same work done along with some extra to clean up the mess they created....moral of this story - I earned my seat and no one's gonna take that away from me!!!
-- Edited by Doll at 18:23, 2007-12-01
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I'm sorry that you haven't found the people in AA as friendly as I have. I know that some are sicker than others, but I have been lucky and haven't come across anyone like that yet.
I hope that you will have a much better experience in AA this time. I'll be thinking of you.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
