Hey y'all... Well, my back is better, the sciatica is mostly better... I'm driving again, getting to meetings, only a bit of problems with my leg after the long drives, but tolerable enough... went to a couple of really good meetings the past 2 nights, Sunday I went to my old homegroup in Memphis, a 1st step meeting, and heard so many things that just kinda "clicked" and made some things make sense to me that I hadn't been able to figure out... also saw a good friend that I hadn't talked to in quite awhile, and was so happy to find out she is just about to get 5 months sober, she came into AA about a year before I did, and the most time she'd ever gotten was 6 months... it was so good to see her, and to see her doing so good :)
Went to my homegroup last night for the first time since before my back went out, and it was so good to see everyone there, and saw my sponsor, and also set it up with her to go to her house Thursday afternoon and do my 5th step finally, we'll spend the afternoon together, then that night is the birthday meeting and she'll be celebrating 4 years :)
My boyfriend was here for the weekend, and left Sunday morning... we had a great weekend, took him to a meeting down here last Friday and he had to tease me, told me he's gotta get his hearing up to speed cuz we talk too fast down here lol That's what I get for dating guys from up north... they gotta tease me about the accent down here lol He found out he should be laid off work for the winter in a couple of weeks, said he should be able to come back down here in about 2-4 weeks and spend a couple of weeks here :)
I'm back to the "real world" after the holiday weekend, and dealing with some stress, trying to figure out how I'm gonna make it, started really taking a look at my bills and put my credit cards away because they're all run up and I gotta start paying them off... realizing that I can't make it here on my own, and am not quite sure yet what I'm gonna do. My dad isn't willing to lower my rent or anything. I have a doctor's appointment today, and will see what the doctor says about any kind of limitations on what I can do, but I know he won't say much until after I get new MRI's done and stuff. My sponsor and a friend at the meeting last night are suggesting I don't try to find work just yet, they're worried about me screwing up my back again... and I agree, except that without extra income I can't make it. Rent is over half of my check each month, and that doesn't leave enough to pay bills plus have enough to live on for the month. Don't have many options right now, one I am considering but really gotta do some praying about.
I've hardly slept tonight.... called my bf this morning when he got up, then talked to him at about 5 this morning when I still hadn't gotten back to sleep... he told me to tell the committee in my head to shut up so I can sleep lol Night before last I slept for 12 hours and was still just totally wiped out... but then only dozed a couple of hours earlier though i've been so tired. My body's just all outta whack, and I'm sure it's stress... I gotta stop worrying so much... trying to go to as many meetings as I can, now that I can drive, but also having to watch how much gas I'm using too because of the lack of money... I live too far out to try to get rides. But I'll work somethin out, meetings come before anything else... and I'm talking to my sponsor often, and talking to other alkies.
I know things will get better, I know things will work out. Just gotta sort some things out, and keep praying, and see what God wants me to do... God's looked out for me so far... kept me from going to California a couple of months ago, don't know what I'd have done if I'd made it out there so far from home and all this stuff came up. So I have faith that God will put me in the right place now...
Gonna try to get a little sleep or I won't be able to make the drive to Memphis for my appointment this afternoon...
Good to hear that everything is on the up and up..
Was going to ask how the weekend went with the new boyfriend, on Monday....but was scared of what the answer would be....and didnt want details.....hahaha...
Keep on Cluckin!!
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Hi Lisa, You sound at peace for the most part!! Glad to hear it! Phil's a sicko!!!!!HAHA! Good luck at your appt tomorrow. As always, take it easy!!!! Lani
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Thank God everything's eased up a little for you, Lisa! I'm glad you're having some nicer times & finding some peace. I'm glad you can make it back out to a few meetings. It's horrible for you to have felt alone with your pain though you've had us to yack with & your loved ones near. I hope things continue to be some more manageable for you. I'm so glad you're feeling better. I hope you can get the rest & sleep you need. Love in fellowship, Danielle x
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