I am not so envious of other people, nor am I jealous of other people's possessions and talents. When I was drinking, I was secretly full of jealousy and envy of those people who could drink normally, who had the love and respect of their families, who lived a normal life and were accepted as equals by their friends. I pretended to myself that I was as good as they were, but I knew it wasn't so. Now I don't have to be envious any more. I try not to want what I don't deserve. I'm content with what I have earned by my efforts to live the right way. More power to those who have what I have not. At least, I'm trying. Have I got rid of the poison of envy?
Meditation for the Day ~
"My soul is restless till it finds its rest in Thee." A river flows on, until it loses itself in the sea. Our spirits long for rest in the Spirit of God. We yearn to realize a peace, a rest, a satisfaction that we have never found in the world or its pursuits. Some are not conscious of their need, and shut the doors of their spirits against the spirit of God. They are unable to have true peace.
Prayer for the Day ~
I pray that I may feel the divine unrest. I pray that my soul may find its rest in God.
Hazelden
(Let it be a God or Higher Power of your own understanding)
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That was a good post for me to read. When I was drinking, I was always so envious of other people and of what I perceived them to have in their lives. I was never envious of material possessions but of their peace and contentment. Now, I have my own peace and contentment and life feels good.
Thanks for a super post and for reminding me how far I have come.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Thanks very much, Carol. I really related to this too. Surprise, surprise! It's an interesting experience for me to post these each day. The book was a gift from a fellow member I respect very much & using it has helped to change my life too. It's beautiful to feel & be guided by the wisdom in the words & to be fair, they manage to express so much of what I learn in recovery that I may not be able to put words to. Thanks for your continued posting & your fellowship. Love in recovery, Danielle x
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