In A.A. we do not speak much of sex. And yet putting sex in its proper place in our lives is one of the rewards that has come to us as a result of our new way of living. The Big Book says that many of us needed an overhauling there. It also says that we subjected each sex relation to this test- was it selfish or not? "We remembered always that our sex powers were God-given and therefore good, neither to be used lightly or selfishly, nor to be despised or loathed." We can ask God to mold our ideals and to help us to live up to them. We can act accordingly. Have I got my sex life under control?
Meditation for the Day ~
"I will lift up my eyes unto the heights whence cometh my help." Try to raise your thoughts from the depths of the sordid and mean and impure things of the earth to the heights of goodness and decency and beauty. Train your insight by trying to take the higher view. Train it more and more until distant heights become more familiar. The heights of the Lord, whence cometh your help, will become nearer and dearer and the false values of the earth will seem farther away.
Prayer for the Day ~
I pray that I may not keep my eyes forever downcast. I pray that I may set my sights on higher things.
Hazelden
(Let it be a God or Higher Power of your own understanding)
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Ironically good timing this for me. My biggest battle at the moment besides lifting my winter mood is staying celibate 1Day@aTime. That means not involving myself with any males on a romantic level. Even texting or email or chatting frequently is a no-no for me right now. I want to keep myself safe until the desire subsides or keep myself from tempting situations. We don't speak of it much in mixed meetings for reasons of appropriateness & if it's that much of an issue there is another fellowship & female meetings but for me, it is related to my alcoholism, my addictive personality. It's part of my getting sober. It's part of cleaning & purifying my intentions so that I'm not physically led. Even 'developing an interest' would be too much for me right now. I've alot to learn in figuring me out & I wouldn't want to get in a mess or distracted with anybody again. I'd like somebody stable, creative & self~aware at a point in the future when that person can know or feel that I've purified myself in singledom so that they would truly have a clean slate with me & no baggage. That means for me to have what I would like in the future I would have to be that in myself first. That's what I'm working for. Yes, for myself, but it's not my ideal to be alone for the rest of my life. I don't want to be emotionally or intimately starved but I do only want to break my fast for a wholesome meal. Not a quick pizza! I'm sure there would be risk of getting it wrong but this way I'm in with a chance. Again abstinance offers me a chance to gain that which I long & try for in life. 'God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can & the wisdom to know the difference; please walk with & have a care for me while I learn to live with myself & live these new ways. Thy will not mine be done'. Thanks for letting me share. I'm so glad I'm here with you, Danielle x
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