I can't deal with this... I've been doing ok till today I just can't take it anymore. The pain pills wear off after about 6 hours, the muscle relaxer 2 hours after that sometimes help, but it hasn't today, and I still have an hour and a half till I can take another pain pill. I took one a little early last night, bf said it'd be ok cuz I was in bad pain and the dr had said I could take it 2 or 3 times a day but I was trying to only take it twice a day like it says on the bottle. Been having these dizzy spells and it makes me scared to get up much at all and the doctor never called back about that. Just been trying to make it through to my next pain pill... and getting pain in my sciatic nerve again except it's on the other side now and is actually pain not just numbness like it has been in my other leg. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this... I'm so f-ing scared right now and I've been trying so hard to keep my spirits up and not get depressed but I've been about on the verge of tears for the past few hours, I just can't take this. and then someone in the chatroom I go to, a good friend - one of my "adopted dads" - has been real pissy with me lately and he was in the chatroom earlier and kinda jumped on me and told me to just hush and be grateful and I said I am grateful cuz I know it could be worse but I'm just scared and he kept jumping on me for it and I just had to leave. I guess I'm being too much of a baby. I guess I need to just shut up. I've hardly talked to anyone all day cuz I don't mean to keep complaining so much. Just kinda holed myself up here at home and stayed off the computer most the day but this is all just getting to me too bad and I can't deal with this alone
Hi Girl, Sorry things arent so great right now...Why cant your mom come and get you sooner than Saturday? Not sure how far she is but call her and tell her you need help soon...Maybe just being around your family would help. Just ask!! Take care Lani
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Mom's not off work till Saturday, so she was gonna pick me up then. and we were trying to give it some time for the dewormer to work on my critters too before I took them near her animals. Just one more day to make it here, then she'll come get me.
The pain meds aren't helping at all tonight, the sciatica is killing me, I just took the muscle relaxer and I'm praying it helps. I'm so tired but I'm hurting too much to sleep. :( bf told me to take the pain pill every 8 hours tomorrow instead of every 12 hours, said to try that just for one day, cuz the dr had said 2 or 3 times a day. he said if she put on the prescription 2 or 3 times, then the pharmacist had to put the less time on it, twice a day. So he said it's still ok, it's still dr's orders. So I'm gonna try that tomorrow but it seems like they're not helping at all anymore. Or maybe with how soon it wears off I'm getting to where I'm just hurting too bad for it to help, I don't know. but I'm just not handling it well right now.
Thankfully I have a friend who is on all night every night, because of the time difference, at least I have someone to help keep me somewhat sane while I can't sleep, cuz if I was totally alone with this, not sure how I'd be handling it.
Hiya Lisa, love. I'm sorry your friend lost patience with you. I felt for you when you said you'd been close to tears for such awhile. I'm sorry to hear that & you're not alone. This won't last forever & when the relief comes it'll be like ecstacy in comparison to pleasure. Hang in there, chica. One more sleep & then some help. Take your small comforts for now & stay strong. You're doing really well. Even though you're grateful, it doesn't mean it's impossible to suffer. I'm with you in prayers. Do whatever it takes to stay sober in your heart & soul. This will pass. I know it doesn't feel like right now but it will! Loads of love & hugs, Danielle x
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I hope you feel better soon. It breaks my heart that someone as young as yourself is having such a hard time physically. Being young is challenging enough. Be brave, and take care. It will pass.
