Thank you to all who replied to my very first posting yesterday. I am so very glad to be a member of this forum and of course, AA. Your words of love and encouragement are very inspirational and helpful. I certainly realize now that during my first 5 years of sobriety, I was nothing more than a 'Dry Drunk'. I still was trying to run my life myself without diving too deep into the program. This was all run by my ego. Gotta kill that ego... it can be so harmful. I'm looking forward to really doing the 12 steps right this time. I now have the best sponsor, a much more humbling attitude and now, this forum. It does feely scary, but I know that is normal. Thanks for the support!
welcome curtis, and i just want to say that even after 20 years without a drink i felt like throwing it all away when my heart got broken, scared the crap out of me! now i feel like a newcomer again even though i didnt pick up cause i need to work my program just like i was new, (the desire to drink is back) so having strayed to far im brought back and its a good thing! (in a weird way) have a good 24
Welcome, Curtis :) Well done for making it back. I sometimes wonder if it would take another drink to get me humble but Just 4 Today I don't dare! You've taken a great plunge & felt the difference. Your 5years+ are not wasted. I think you have an insight now that will enrich your sobriety & you're probably simply ready for the 'next level' ~ the next reveals. Well done for coming back as soon as you have. Nestle in & recover as soon as you like. We're glad to have you. Keep sharing & letting us know how it's going. I love hearing everyone's journey. I'm so glad I'm not alone, Danielle x
Ps. I didn't notice regarding there being alot of women here. I hope you don't mind! Anyhoo, tis all ebbs & flows I reckon!
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Hi Curtis, Welcome. It's true sometimes we're not ready to admit certain things to ourselves because of "ego". Yet when we do we are able to move forward. Had to laugh at Dean's response to your first post about it being intimidating with so many women. Sort of felt that way by my AH in the last year or so we lived togethor. (Codependent thing.) Then taking that "first step" admission that he was abusing consumption. In turn seeking out help which led me to be in the midst those who had abused. In the beginning ....... wonder if I wasn't stepping right in the center of the "lion's den": I the ALANONER and the rest AA'rs. As time has passed that all dissipated....... Some of the wisest and most profound shares on this board have come from some of the men. From EVERYONE I have learned ALOT! We are here fighting in our own way for the same thing.......a life of sobriety. May you reap the blessings as you "reboot" your own journey. Wanda
Thank you to all who replied to my very first posting yesterday. I am so very glad to be a member of this forum and of course, AA. Your words of love and encouragement are very inspirational and helpful. I certainly realize now that during my first 5 years of sobriety, I was nothing more than a 'Dry Drunk'. I still was trying to run my life myself without diving too deep into the program. This was all run by my ego. Gotta kill that ego... it can be so harmful. I'm looking forward to really doing the 12 steps right this time. I now have the best sponsor, a much more humbling attitude and now, this forum. It does feely scary, but I know that is normal.