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FIXING ME, NOT YOU

If somebody hurts us and we are sore, we are in the wrong also.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 90

What a freedom I felt when this passage was pointed out to me! Suddenly I saw that I could do something about my anger, I could fix me, instead of trying to fix them. I believe that there are no exceptions to the axiom. When I am angry, my anger is always self-centered. I must keep reminding myself that I am human, that I am doing the best I can, even when that best is sometimes poor. So I ask God to remove my anger and truly set me free.



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Fixin me, not you

I really like this about Anger. I have been an angry person most of my life and it has taken most of adult sober life to begin the work on me. When God and I took away all the numbing substances away from me. We found a New Creation to be opened up for the World to see.

All the pushed down feelings of abuse, neglect, rapes, drunken behavior, addictive behavior, angry behavior, resentments, non-communication skills, all those times "NO" was said and it was never being heard. The things that I saw as a child were horrifying from alcohol abuse. So P.T.S.D. is something I also carry and have worked on.

When I used to start to get angry I was drinking more and more and more. To repress those memories of pain, guilt, and shame. WHo else feels that way? Just me?
When I started drinking/using at 13 years old and having relations with men 10, 20, 30 years older than I was. They call it rape, molestation today. However, I couldn't say "NO." I needed to be loved and fefel Love the only way I could feel it from a man unfortunantly was intimately. I was staved for LOVE Just the wrong kind of LOVE. I want AGAPE LOVE today.

Like most little girls on alcohol and drugs and on the streets. What happens to them is more or less the same thing that happened to me. I went through many physical attacks, gang rapes, and beatings. All this before my 16th Birthday and more horror to come later on.

Hurt people, hurt people. So with that I want to say it takes alot of work not to hurt my husband with my mouth, or my son. They are the closest to me so I have the most work to do right here at home. That is my Greatest Shortcoming, GOD will heal me from this Shortcoming soon, in Jesus name.

Take a look at page 448- 449-450 If you get too out of sorts with your anger. It has helped me in the past.

Don't let the Sun go down on your anger, while the Devil prowls around like a roaring Lion looking for a soul to devour.

Take care,

Pamela Ann

-- Edited by Pam P at 06:18, 2007-10-11

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Thankyou for your courage, Pamela Ann x


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