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timverton


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Hi all!  And a big WELCOME to all the newcomers.  Tim, alcoholic.  There have been some great posts on this site lately and it's good to see that interaction with important topics.  I just felt like throwing out some thoughts.
   I am coming up on 14 months in a few days and this is the longest stretch of sobriety I've had in the ten to dozen years I've been trying.  Many attempts, many failures.
   This time around feels SOOO different though.  I feel as though alcohol is part of my past.  I gave up smoking dope shortly after my sons were born many moons ago (20+ yrs.)  after having smoked on a daily basis for close to a decade and I've never looked back.  I dropped a coke habit  in '87 after a good six year run and thousands of dollars (I used to sell it, the dollars spent would have been more had I not) and never looked back at that either.
   So now it appears with alcohol.  It REALLY seems like the use of it is in my past as with the other substances.  It's a GOOD feeling after all these years to not want it at all.  I believe that all my other attempts to get and stay sober were a "dry" drunk; the thought of drinking again some day was always in the back of my mind.  This time it's a very peaceful feeling and I've come to accept real life on life's terms, no assistance needed or wanted.
   BUT I WILL NEVER LET MY GUARD DOWN!!  That, I HAVE learned can be deceitfully deadly.
  So anyway... I just felt like throwing this out here for someone else to ponder on with hopes it might be of help.
   Good fortune to all of you...Tim

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StPeteDean


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Good News Tim! My backround is very similar to yours with the drugs etc... I really hit bottom hard though at age 29. I wish you all the luck and blessings that sobriety can give you and can say honestly that mine has exceeded even my wildest dreams across the board and over time. That "Peaceful feeling" is a gift, and perhaps the greatest gift unrealized by most. Enjoy everyday of it my friend.

-- Edited by StPeteDean at 18:38, 2007-10-02

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jennie08062005


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wow, good stuff.  congrats to you & your 14 months!  thank you for sharing your thoughts.

 i also had drug problems.  i was living on the west coast and i was addicted to crystal meth (i am not sure if you can mention specific drugs here so please correct me if i am wrong in doing this.  at any rate, for that addiction the geographical cure did indeed CURE.  i have not touched the stuff since 1999 & i have never had a desire to use it since.  on to the real issue . . . when i came back from the west coast at 17 years old & moved in with my parents they had the cure for my drug addiction . . . ALCOHOL . . . with them both being alcoholics themselves, they did not realize that YES, alcohol is a drug.  so fast forward through to the still young age of 21, my journey of insanity and chronic alcoholism began (institutions, loss of jobs, chaos, etc.)  i feel i was blessed to have hit rock bottom as quickly as i did.  at 23 i decided to give up for good!  i have maintained 26 months a sobriety by living one day at a time.  i fall short at times and sometimes can tell when i am becoming a bit complacent and by God's grace i haven't had to drink to figure that out . . . besides as the Big Book says, "no one among us has maintained anything like PERFECT adherence to these priciples" . . .

at any rate . . . done with the rambling . . . i love to hear about other alcoholics being HAPPY, JOYOUS, & FREE!!!!  it inspires no matter how many stories i hear.  

thanks for sharing =)

~jennie~

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Hi Tim,

Congrats on your upcoming 14 months. That's really terrific.

I'm coming up to 20 months and I know what you mean about it feeling different this time. When you mentioned that it feels as if alcohol was in your past, that is exactly how it feels for me, too. But, I know that I have to be constantly on my guard. I loved what you said about letting down your guard and how it can be deceitfully deadly. It is so true and a good thought for me to have today. Thank you.

Take care,

Carol

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