Yesterday I made my 1st trip to the grocery store since I have decided to get sober. I was terrified of having to go in. In hindsight I shoud have taken a friend with me but I am happy to say that I didn't let temptation take over. I walked right past the lliquor and wine section without a pause. I knew this was going to be hard but didn't realize how affected I would be by it until i got home after shopping and completely broke down and just sobbed in my driveway. While being very proud of myself I was also feeling ashamed of myself at the same time for having to put so much effort into not buying alcohol. But I am focusing on the fact that I stayed strong and sober.
Deb
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It's always the little, daily things that can throw us off. But you are posting on the right site - all of us can understand how a trip to the grocery store, and past the liquor isle, can make us sob. Congrats on coming home sober!
It took a long time for my car to learn not to drive to the "beer store". We are so used to doing daily tasks automatically that driving, shopping ect.. have to be relearned. I would go to the grocery store or drug store day-dreaming and wind up standing in front of the beer cooler. Sometimes for minutes surveying the different beer before my conscious mind woke up and said "wait, we don't drink anymore". The good news is that, after awhile, thru repetition we will automatically not go to the booze section, or bar and won't think about it or miss it, but it takes time and right now you just have to "buy time". Hang in there it gets easier every time you deny your urge to drink. It's like weight lifting, with every repetition, you get stronger.
