Thanks, All of you have been a GREAT help ...and have givin me a BIG boost !! If someone was to ask me how much time I had today, I would have say "alot", Because being a Alcoholic ...24 hrs IS alot of time without a drink. If there is someone reading this that think's they CANT go 24 Hrs...just try to make it 10 Min. That will give you enough time to get to a phone and call someone. Years ago when I first came in, I heard a guy say, " Every time I got drunk, it was a direct result from me drinking alcohol." I Thought that was such a stupid remark. What a Dummy. Later... after thinking about that "stupid remark", it hit me. He Was 100% Right, because if you had asked me why I was drunk, I would have told you " it's because of what that a__hole said or did to me, or for some other reason. The fact was, NOBODY grabbed me and poured that crap down my throat. IM the one who made the decission to drink ! NOBODY and NO REASON can MAKE me pick up that drink...and THATS when I get drunk. I know everything about drinking...It" what I DONT no about NOT drinking that keep's me coming back. Ron
Glad to see you're still with us Ron! Looking forward to hearing some of your past survival stories of the previous fourteen and over the next bunch of years too...Tim
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Had a hard day today.I went for a interview yesterdad. The lady told me to call today around 1pm. I called 4 times and all I got was her voice mail. Pissed me off, and Im not going to lie, yes, I wanted to drink..or should I say get drunk .But I didnt pick up. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Right now Im just down in the dumps, But I know it will pass. Just needed to unload.
Keep sharing. It inspires! "It's what I DONT' KNOW about NOT drinking that keeps me coming back" that is a super line. It goes for Alanoners as well. It is EXACTLY why I am here. To "learn" how best to "cope" with the AH in my life....... And boy have I learned alot!!!!! (Even though I thought I knew it all. LOL) Guess what? Even after all the time I've spent here (and by other various means) I AM still ........"Learning" aka Wanda Glad you're here!
Wow Ron! Sounds like you are doing great... loved that last post you wrote... it is so true and that is what we all need to remember... it is our choice to pick up! Very proud of you!
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Hi everyone ! Well, as I posted last night, I had a rough day, and it sure helped to unload. I didnt pick up that drink, thats the most important thing. So far, today is much better. I just have to remember what I heard onetime from a oldtimer. He tod me , "Ron, when you sober up, things may not get better...but YOU will". I asked him what he ment by that and he said, sober or not..people are going to be the people...fact is, the whole world will sometimes just plain ole suck, and some of it aint gonna be to pretty.The thing is, you will be sober and have the tool's you'll need to handel them when the Sh_t hit's the fan. As far as things changing, I remember a fellow telling me that everything changes. Me being a newcomer I ask how he knew that. He said " follow me". We went to the front of the building and he said "look down at that sidewalk (I thought he was nut's but decided to play his little game anyway). He said " if you come here tomorrow I will prove to you that sidewalk has changed". I went the next day (thinking that he knew in advance they were going to break it up or something). When I saw him he said, " are ya ready to see the change in that sidewalk" ? I said sure, so we walked over to it and he said look down at it, so I did. He said do you see anything differant about it? I looked at it and said nope Bob, and your freaking nuts if you see something. He said " well, first of all, it's one day older, and thats a change, and second, if you know anything about concrete, it never fully hardens. 100 years from now it will still be getting stronger. I went home and did some research on the p/c and sure enough, thats what I found out about it, so the old man wasnt nut's. My point is, I didnt pick up last night, so I changed..Im one more day sober, and as long as Im alive and stay sober, just like that concrete, everyday I get a little stronger with God's help. Going to a meeting tonight, Like my Buddy Harry say's "dem that dont go to meetings dont ever find out what happens to dem that dont go to meetings". Hope all of you are having a great day ! ( and if your not, dont drink anyway)
Thanks so much for your last post. That was great to read. I loved the line when you sober up, things may not get better ... but YOU will" How true that is.
Take care,
Carol
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