well as some of you may remember me youīll know I havenīt been around for a while. Well what can i say? I moved to spain as i said i would and it has been one hellish ride after the other, Iīm drinking like thereīs no tomorrow, I even thought about taking my own life thursday morning just to stop the pain and missery Iīm causing myself. Obviously i donīt really want to do this but I need help to be me again. and right now iīm a lost little girl who canīt see her way out of it all.
I am truly sorry that your move to Spain has been so bad for you.
I am so sorry, too, that you are drinking. Forgive me as I don't know your personal circumstances, but is there anyone that you can talk to or call in Spain? Do you have any friends or family there with you, I guess is what I am asking.
Alcohol is a depressant and will make you feel a million times worse when you have been drinking. If it will be safe for you, please try not to have another drink today.
Here is the website for finding meetings in Spain.
http://www.aaspain.org/
Please call someone now! There will be someone who can talk to you right now and help you. You don't have to be alone with this problem. Katie, we have all been there and there really is so much help available. Please know that you are not alone.
Will you call AA now? Please give it a try.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
(((hugs)))
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Ditto what quetzal/carol says. Please call now,,, and continue to post here. k? Actually drinking does make it feel worse. time to take it second by second rather than day by day. You can make it through the next second,, see? you did.. now the next one.. see? one foot in front of the other.
you are in my prayers,, your life is precioius,
love in recovery,
amanda
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Hi Flumpy, it's good to hear from you again. You know, we do this to ourselves, going back out thinking it may be different this time 'round, and it's not. It's the same. I know I had to do it more than just a few times just to prove it to myself, that it only gets worse. Are you still in Spain?
Give yourself credit for reaching out again. I've no idea, if you're still in Spain, how AA works there, but you know there's always the hotline that can link you up. There's also crisis intervention, if you feel you need it, and there's usually someone here to talk to. Do see about meetings, ok? Yeah, quitting is a bitch, and support is imperative. But not quitting is even more of a bitch, eh? Please, call someone local and try to find some "right now" support. You do not have to be alone during this.
In the interim, know that you're in my prayers, I (we) know how you're hurting right now, and hang in there until things clear a bit. The crappy part will pass, and if you need to, get medical help. Lotsa water. Lotsa prayer. It's a whole great world out there waiting for you. a big hug, Wren
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Its good to hear from you although you probably dont feel that great now. Alot of people dont make it back, if you have hit rock bottom it can only get better, people here know what you must be going through. keep talking and keep close.
thankyou all for your words, I am still in spain tho wish i wasnīt I dreading the next 3 months as the kids will be on holiday from school And iīm scared to be alone with them as my partner is going to start work. i am no longer functioning at all.
You took that first step by reaching out. That is to be commended. We take for granted that when we learned to walk it was one step at a time. The first was the hardest.......you have done the admission by just posting. Making the call will be the next one......meetings.... working the steps..... And before you realize it you WILL be walking through a more wonderful life full of blessings. We were all a little wobbly in the beginning so know that you are not alone. We will always be here to help you. Wanda
there is a solution, and its in the big book of AA. the directions in that book lead us out of hell and into a world we didnt even know existed. or at least "I" did not know about. if it worked for me it can work for you......i know too much about "hell" and still struggle with my concept of "god" . i really wanted to learn something different that drinking myself to death, the program works for that. god bless you.
I Know Just how you feel. Read the post I wrote. after 13 yrs I picked up again and things went to hell. I had the same thought of putting a end to it all. Well , today I have 5 day's clean and a better outlook for the future. Im not where I want to be at the moment, but I belive in time I might be able to say Im Really happy and sober again. IF I CAN DO IT...SO CAN YOU. Dont give up.
thankyou all for your words, I am still in spain tho wish i wasnīt I dreading the next 3 months as the kids will be on holiday from school And iīm scared to be alone with them as my partner is going to start work. i am no longer functioning at all.
thankyou katie.xx
Hi Flumpy!
Gem here, the new kid on the block- sorta! They say that when life has become hell in a handbasket that one of the ways to deal with it, besides reaching out as you are doing here, is to help someone else. That's what I'm doing right now, and my life isn't going all that well at the moment either. But I know what to do. If I've learned anything in 27 years of sobriety it is that there is no sense in making a bad situation worse- and continuing to drink will accomplish precisely that.
Remember these words:
"There is never a situation so good that a drink won't screw it up and there is never a situation so bad that a drink won't make it worse. That I can assure you of. Experience counts- heavily. Read a lot of good ESH in this thread and it appears that you have friends here that have missed you. Listen (and apply) what they are suggesting. And stay in touch. Some of us need you too, cause it helps us to be able to stay sober by helping you.
Gem
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My worst days sober are better than my best days drunk.
They say that when life has become hell in a handbasket that one of the ways to deal with it, besides reaching out as you are doing here, is to help someone else. That's what I'm doing right now, and my life isn't going all that well at the moment either. But I know what to do. If I've learned anything in 27 years of sobriety it is that there is no sense in making a bad situation worse- and continuing to drink will accomplish precisely that.