Wellllll Jen. Sounds like something has gotten you a good bit upset. As they say (whoever THEY are), take it easy. I hope all works out well and comes back to normal for you soon...Tim
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Hi Jen, Yes, everyone has those times. This week was one for me as well. My daughter is pregnant.....due July 12. Her blood pressure elevated and urine sample revealed somethings that implied possible Preeclamsia. Since that can progress quickly they had her return to hosp. 24 hrs later to recheck. Bedrest, discontinue working at job, and monitoring/chartering her vitals every day while at home for another week. Thought it would be the right thing to do to call her dad. Wellllll......his mistress answered phone the first time. Not a friendly hello so something was surely going with the business (tavern) or between she and him. I asked for him. She asked who was calling. As soon as I told her......"click". Called back...he answered. His speech/tone.. He was already drunk. Four times had to explain situation then he turned it around making false accusations (I've now got a bf, with a Harley?! Hmmm....I DIDN"T KNOW THAT. LOL And how does AH? Said he'd been past my home.) He got nasty. Put me in tears. After the conversation.... I tapped the twelve steps. His problem.....the alcohol. I have no control over what he does OR he says. HIS guilt.....he left, he drinks, he's the adulterer. His blame....ficticious. I kept silently praying and suddenly the tears stopped. I felt God's presence. Promised I'd call him next night to let him know if they would induce her or send her home after 2nd days tests results. 10pm.....bartender answered. Told her I wanted to talk to him. He was upstairs (apartment). Again made the same request. Same response. Then asked if this was "about Annie". Responded yes and again asked for him. Again told he was upstairs. (Could feel that emotional "blood pressure" rise. LOL) Then she asked "How is Annie doing?" That is when I decided ENOUGH and did not respond verbally but I did hang up ending the conversation. This afterall was information for him FIRST. Called him next even. and got my ass chewed out for being rude. Don't call back. He will communicate with our daughter. Can only ASSUME who is behind this. Mistress must be insecure and is making it a point that if he has any contact with me regardless of what it is will surely oust his rear. LOL Acceptance......I have not called him in about 2 yrs. Have ran in to him at our sons' home. Those conversations were friendly with no topics regarding us getting back togethor, ect. This was important. Preeclamsia is a threat to the health of mother and child. In worst cases it causes death. This was NOT about ah and me.....it was about our daughter. After the last "ripping" decided if she/he wanted act like asses.....so be it. I will survive I AM SOBER and content/at peace/happy to be so. I am able to mention now in conversations......his name and our experiences when we were togethor without feelings of anger resentment. So I know much of what has been learned here and else where has brought about change within me. I have found this information to help in the workplace, and other areas of life. I may feel a "sting"/pang of negative emotions such as these incidents have brought forth........HOWEVER.....it is then I tap into HP and all I have learned and those feelings seem to disappate so much more quickly now.
What ever is going on........wishing your HP to help you cope. Understanding......we all have those times. Praying for you.......Wanda
