after being sober almost 14 years, I started drinking. I dont have Inc. so I cant go into detox . I want my life back. Ive even thought of ending it all because I feel like such a looser. I want to detox myself. ANY advice would help.PLEASE., pray for me.
sounds serious Ron. Can you see a doctor at a free clinic or anything? Perhaps someone at an AA meeting could help you. Both would be worth a try I believe. Detox, unassisted, is no fun but IS possible. It can also be deadly so I would suggest you seek help somewhere. Your life DOES matter! Stay in touch here and let us know how you are. Good fortune...Tim
Edit: What about a local church or church organization? Priests/Pastors are usually trained in helping people I believe. Just another possible. Maybe others will have more to offer.
-- Edited by timverton at 21:52, 2007-06-13
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Hey Ron, welcome. Yes, detoxing can be serious, so as suggested, you might call a clinic in the area. If it were me (maybe I should say when it was me) I did call AA, and someone came over and stayed with me. One of many times before I ended up in treatment. Oftimes, the ER will take you regardless. Better the big bill to deal with than the repurcussions. After 14 yrs, do you have any friends in the program, or even a friend that is not, but will be there in a supportive way? Please do give the hotline a call, explain your circumstances. We have all been there, and they may have some very good alternatives to suggest. Not knowing what area you're in, that is really my only really clear suggestion. In the interim, keep posting, people are on and off all night on this forum. Hang in there, you already know that it's worth it. be blessed, Chris
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Id suggest if there is no other alternative, calling your closest friend, explain the situation, and ask if mabye you could spend the night there. You should have someone at least keep an eye on you for the first 12-15 hours. As suggested, the ER really is the best place to be. Then a meeting the very next day. And asking for help for yourself in prayer is always OK too...
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Most city's will help with the Detox....call your local AA hotline usally in the white pages they can help you with the Detox get you ride if you need it ...... my service commitment is working the Hotline ....and Detox does not cost were i am ...and if worce comes to worce you can go to any ER if it is a emergency ....all we have is today ...could you check back with us let us no how you are doing .....i care take care buddy.
I agree with Mikey50 that calling your local AA helpline would be a start. I, too, have answered the AA helpline in my area and know of a free detox center in this area. Whoever you speak to will be nothing other than very helpful and supportive.
You are not a loser, but a person with a potentially fatal disease as is everyone who comes on to this super board. Just hang in there.
Please keep posting and letting us know how it goes for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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I'm not a Doctor, i also live in the UK where this is not such an issue. I have experienced de-tox (from drugs) and remember the woman in the room next to me was de-toxing from alcohol and as i lay night after endless night in pain and discomfort having fits and convulsions i was also thanking god i wasn't going through what she was, so i will caution you to be careful and get as much support as you can.
I will most certainly pray for you and the best outcome.
Sometimes it takes a couple of days for your body to really notice that the alcohol is really missing and to really experience the dt's full strength,, and the symptoms then can last a few days and be VERY serious, including hallucinations in which the brain swells and the person has really lost contact with reality. It is really important to get the professional care that one needs at that point. There are also some things that are helpful in getting through it,, meds and vitamins, etc.
I'm glad you are beginning recovery,
amanda
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Hi everyone. First thing I want to say is a BIG thank you for being there for me. I woke up this morning and asked God to give me one more chance, and to help me not drink today. I spoke to a friend thats in AA and just like you folks, he was there to listen and offer some advice. I got busy working out in my yard and made sure I stayed busy. I read somewhere that drinking lots of spring water helps. Plus I bought some gateraid. I drank enough to float a ship. Belive it or not, staying busy, I never thought but maybe once or twice about drinking. I forgot to say I pored all the booze down the drain.Now Im so tired from working, all I want to do is take a shower and get some rest. Point is, I didnt drink Thanks to God and to some of you who I belive prayed for me. I have a long road ahead, but with God and folks like you, I might just make it. I do want to say this...WARNING.....if you even have a small idea that you can drink a couple of drinks and the just bounce back..your WRONG ! Trust me, it has been Hell the last few Mos. and I hope none of you have to ever go through it. Even though I dont know any of you personaly, I feel like I have some new friends out there pulling for me, and that within itself gives me a reason to keep going. Again, Thank all of you. I plan on picking up a 24 hr. chip tomorrow night at my old home group. It's going to be hard walking up there to get it because I have that stupid thing called male pride. I dont know what the gossip about me will be, but thats about them. Keep praying for me PLEASE. I plan on keeping in touch with you folks. Ron
Congratulations on getting through a very tough time Ron. I'm glad you were not too proud to seek some advice and council. And don't let the pride stand in the way of your recovery. You know you'll be welcomed with open arms.
Keeping busy has always been a good way for me to allay any thoughts of drinking, especially at the beginning (I guess I always will consider myself at the beginning). And yes, been the "I got it made and can have one or two and keep it under control" route and ended up the same way. So have MANY others here. Don't feel alone. The point is, we come to sanity again and work towards sobriety one day, hour, minute, or second at a time. Good to see you back and hope to hear more. Good fortune...Tim
-- Edited by timverton at 02:48, 2007-06-15
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I remember walking back into my old home group after I had been back out drinking and wondering what, if anything, was going to be said to me. To my amazement, a lovely lady that I had known from my last time in AA walked up to me and gave me a big hug. She said Welcome home and I have never forgot that. In fact, I reminded her of that last night when she shared for me from the top table. No-one that I have met in AA wants to be anything other than completely helpful and supportive.
When I sobered up for the second (and, hopefully last) time, I kept myself as busy as possible. It kept my mind occupied and also it meant that I slept better for having been busy.
I'm keeping you in my prayers, Ron.
Please keep coming back and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Well done for not giving up, Ron. Alcohol is a depressant as we know & this can give us feelings towards suicide & hopelessness. Don't let it fool you. You can get well again & you've been out there & know for yourself now how true it is that it gets worse so that's to your advantage. Your faith can be even stronger & complacency perhaps a little less ;) I'm praying you get through this most painful part & I'm glad you're not letting your pride stand in the way. What's a bit of shame & remorse between friends! We can let go of that. You're not alone. Thank God you're back in the boat. Thanks for coming here & letting us know where you're upto. You're going to be fine, 1Day@aTime. Good for you, Ron. Keep coming back & letting us know how you're doing. Lots of love & hope in recovery for you here, Danielle x
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Well, I made it today without a drink again. Stayed busy and honestly didnt want one. Still drinking lots of water(and coffee) to help flush out the poison Tonight I went to my old home group and picked up a 24 hr. chip. Hard to do it, but I did. Maybe tomorrow will be day 3.
Wow Ron a big congrats on coming back and going to your homegroup and getting that chip! You should be proud of yourself! Stay strong! We are all here for you!
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