Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55
Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can experience Him by loving people and allowing people to love me. But I can neither love nor be loved if I allow my secrets to get in the way. It's the side of myself that I refuse to look at that rules me. I must be willing to look at the dark side in order to heal my mind and heart because that is the road to freedom. I must walk into darkness to find the light and walk into fear to find peace. By revealing my secrets - and thereby ridding myself of guilt - I can actually change my thinking; by altering my thinking, I can change myself. My thoughts create my future. What I will be tomorrow is determined by what I think today.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
I am praying for willingness in this area. I am still bound by shame yet in other areas of my life i have grown but the weight of this is proving to be too much.
Its a process I'll get there, i guess. I'm from a long line of sweep it under the carpet lets not talk about that lets just get on with it style of DENIAL
I'll get there, i guess. I'm from a long line of sweep it under the carpet lets not talk about that lets just get on with it style of DENIAL