As I sit and write this, my 29 year old daughter who is an active alcoholic/addict sits in jail...again. I had watched her life parallel mine in so many ways, hoping that age 28 might be the turning point for her as that is the age I went to rehab. It was not her time.
This past weekend I sat with my 11 year old granddaughter and watched her sob to the point of almost vomiting, pouring out years of pain in living with this horrible disease, no real 'mother' so to speak of, a father who has custody but plays little part in parenting other than providing the basics.
I am dealing with chronic back pain that is getting gradually better from a series of caudal injections.
I am in the process of applying for disability, where is NOT where I wanted my life to go, but that is where it is at now, and hoping to get some schooling to complete my degree so I CAN get a job out there that doesn't put me on my feet for long periods because I can't do that physically now.
I look back over the years, and honestly, had someone told me what I would go through over the years after I got sober, I would have laughed and stayed in the bottle!
But you know what? I've made it this far, and I think I'll just take it another 24 hours.
My name is DeVon, I am an alcoholic, and I have been sober since August 5, 1990.
There is hope!
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"There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguements and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance-that principle is contempt prior to investigation."
~Herbert Spencer
My Heart goes out to you. Thank God your Grand-daughter has you....There is sometimes a good side and a bad side to a story. Your Grand-daughter's mom is messed up now, but...Her Grand-mother is sober and taking it "one day at a time". Take Care Nancy Jo
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Life is full of ups and downs
But the faces of love will
ease the pain and suffering
from:My Mother
My beautiful 13-year old granddaughter has no memory of her mother drinking... or of me drinking. Unfortunately she has witnessed her father's antics over the years, but she no longer has to deal with him on a regular basis and she knows the score. I recently introduced her to Alateen and she has gotten a lot out of it although she is not able to go regularly.
I am so grateful that she has a sober mother (and grandpa) and know that it's a gift, one that we keep accepting one day at a time, and pass it on when we have the opportunity.
It is never easy to see a loved one held in the grips of an addiction. You have given yourself the wonderful gift of sobriety. The body may not be able to do what you would like, yet this gift can be given in ooooohhhhh so many other ways. One of which is taking care of that grandchild and teaching her what you yourself have learned. Hopefully somewhere down the road, your daughter will take the steps you yourself have take towards the beautiful life that sobriety provides so many. The example you now set may be the very thing that will encourage her. You probably already know you cannot do this for her. What you CAN do is NEVER give up hope and pray to your HP for her. Miracles happen each and everyday throughout our lives, throughout the world. You are on the right path. Hang in there. In My Thoughts...... Prayers for you and your family...... One day at a time, Wanda
My heart goes out to you. I agree with the others that your granddaughter is blessed to have you in her life. Please stop by again to let us know how you are doing. Take care, Laura
