Hey everyone... well... seeing a new doctor on Tuesday, thankfully it's a lot closer than driving into Lincoln... still in quite a bit of pain... at times my back seems to be a little better, then it gets worse again. And it's always worse at night, sharp pains and twinges. Been taking the Aleve as prescribed, it's not helping. Still having to take neurontin most nights so I can sleep, it helps with the pain a bit, just enough that I can sleep through it... but I'm not sleeping well I don't think, I wake up exhausted in the morning. My boyfriend says I'm tossing and turning through the night... and it's either from pain, or I've been having flashbacks and nightmares a bit lately, so it could be that and I don't remember it? either way, I'm really tired all the time. Doing some online meetings... we'll see how I feel tomorrow night... there's a meeting in the next town over tomorrow night... if I can sit up that long tomorrow then I'll go... Trying hard not to fall into pity parties... which I do on occasion... doing that people pleasing thing, agreeing to help my boyfriend with stuff but then hurting too bad to follow through with it, then I start feeling guilty and worthless, etc... *yawns* anyway, I need to head to bed... just wanted to check in... I'll let y'all know what the dr says on Tuesday...
I do hope that everything will go well for you when you see the new doctor on Tuesday.
Well done for doing some on-line meetings and I hope that you'll be able to get to a f2f meeting soon. They're the only things that keep this alcoholic sober.
I'll be thinking of you and it'll be good to find out how you get on.
Take care,
Carol
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Thanks y'all, yup Phil, you're right, it will get better. Just it's been going on so long that it starts to get me pretty down... My back's been quite a bit better for the most part today... unless I do certain things, then it gets worse. Got in the car with my boyfriend to ride up to the north field and see the work he's been doing up there, wasn't that far to ride at all, but started hurtin. Which is weird cuz I've been able to sit up a bit lately, it's just somethin about the car, the movement and vibration I guess. Morning and Night is the worst time... I wake up with my back horribly stiff and cramping in the mornings... and at night the twinges and sharp pains start up... the neurontin's not working as well now, but I don't want to take the higher dosage... I took it last night and still woke up a couple of hours after I fell asleep, in pretty bad pain... must be building up tolerance... and I don't like that. Gonna just try to do without it tonight since it's not working so well anyway. Thinkin I might get to bed early tonight... pretty tired... what else is new?
