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Girry


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Hi  my first post.

I drink alot like every day after work in the evening.I do not know if  I am an alcoholic or not i just know that i drink alot.It has got to the position that i wake up still drunk from the evening before.I dont want to drink when i wake up or during the day at work but i like to drink when i get home in the evening.At the weekends because i do not have to go to work i stay home and usualy start drinking early afternoon.I do not wish to risk driving at the weekend when i know i am still drunk so i stay home and just end up buying more drink as there is not alot else to do.

I have gone without drink from time to time but,well the first couple of days seem really good but after that i kind of feel numb.The first couple or few days seem great then the novalty wears off and its a case of if i dont have alcohol what do i have?Because no matter how i feel i still look forward to drinking and i do enjoy it to a sense.After a few days of being sober i start to feel empty and have nothing to really look forward to just another boring night.Unlike when i am drinking.This is when i usualy start drinking again.



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Hi Girry,

Welcome to MIP. It's a great place to be and adds a lot to the quality of my sobriety.

For me, I would always start drinking early afternoons. I wasn't working, so I had all day long to think about alcohol and drinking it. I never drank in the mornings as I usually felt too ill from the previous day.

But, it was my behaviour when I had been drinking that led me to AA. I knew that it wasn't normal for me to spend so much time thinking about or drinking alcohol. I was losing friends and hated myself for what I was doing.

Only you can decide if you are an alcoholic or not. Please spend time here reading and posting as much as you want/need. Perhaps you could try 'phoning AA in your area (it will be listed in the 'phone book) and popping along to a meeting or two and seeing if it for you. You'll find that everyone in AA will be very welcoming.

Here is a link to the UK AA website. You might find it useful.

http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk/newcomer/isaa4u.shtml

Take care,

Carol



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-- Edited by Girry at 18:03, 2007-03-18

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Hi Girry, welcome to the MIP forum. As Carol said, you are the only one who can decide whether you are alcoholic or not. I posted the AA Twenty Questions.

I figure that if I'm allowing a substance to do anything that interfers with my life, and I can't stop doing it, then I have a problem. You will know in your heart what you need to do. Just know that we are here for any support you may need if you decide that alcohol is indeed a problem that you want to deal with.  Chris

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Girry


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Erm my score was about 25.



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LOL, well, you must get the same yes's that I got, eh? Y'know, I remember getting out of the hospital one time, and of course that meant I'd been sober for about three or four days. Mind you, I was in there for stomach hemmoraging due to drinking eating holes in my stomach, and being unable to stop the bleeding. I remember standing in my living room, listening to ABBA, and wondering, "if I don't drink, what the hell else is there to do?" ( this disease really does have it's own voice). Well, I went to meetings, even though I didn't talk at them for probably the first year, I was so self conscious (like, the whole world must be looking at me, ready to judge what I say--they couldnt possibly be there for themselves and the newcomer, they were there just to hear what I did or did not say, right? Ah the human ego). I hung out at the alano club and learned to be killer at cribbage. I threw myself into my work. Got a sponsor and started the steps. Now? I stand in my living room, still listening to ABBA, and wondering "good lord, how did I ever get anything done when I was drinking?".

When life starts happening, when we allow it in without that buffer, you would not believe how full it can become. The things that you do that you could never do under the influence. And how much time you can spend helping others trying to find their lives in sobriety. It's an excellent trade off, Girry. And it wont make yu miss work or throw up.........Chris

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Me too, Girry. I'm glad I don't drink now as I can have so much time on my hands to enjoy a job without the unmanageability & extra time to go to meets, meet interesting people without a haze in the way & have even more time to amuse myself. It ends up you wonder how on earth we had the time to drink. I was so preoccupied with it, it sapped my confidence, depressed me, shot at my concentration & generally made me feel quiet dismal about the future with how things had gone before. It's all lies. When you put the drink down you open to other possibilities outside of that immediate gratification. Getting to know yourself again is a real pleasure though can be hard work. I hope you can try some meetings & find the acceptance & lack of judgementalism to be found there. It is also probably one of the most homest arenas you'll come by. People aren't there to big themselves up or drag themselves down it's just about where we are today & what we're learning. Little steps, Girry. You'll soon have your hands full with a whole life to be proud of. Don't give in, it's worth the fight.
Good luck & best wishes, Danielle x

-- Edited by Sobrietyspell at 12:31, 2007-03-19

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