Bill, most certainly your whole family will be in my prayers. One of my boys attempted suicide some years back, and I thought I would go down behind the pain of it. It was not expected, or at least, I didn't know how to read the signs. Do not blame yourself in any way. I did alot of "what ifs", and ended up sitting with a counselor for quite some time. The shock is so great, you may want to find someone to talk to. I have yet to release the fear that it will happen again only I wont be there, and constantly need to work on my faith that God is watching over my son when I cannot. Be kind to yourself as you work thru the shock, and know that you can contact me directly to my email addy ( dryw_s@earthlink.net). A hug, Chris
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I was sorry to read of the pain that you and your family have been feeling. But, it was good to read your next post and to know that your grandson was sounding brighter.
I'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers and hoping that things will carry on improving for you all.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Good luck, love & prayers for the youngster. Life is beautiful & well worth living. I hope he & you all come through this present suffering. Best wishes for recovery, Bill. Danielle
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Dear Bill, What Wren has said is agreed with. It is certain there are questions. I know first hand-- a brother-in-law's death was suspect to suicide. A friend's husband left four small children. There have been others in my lifetime...... I was even told that serveral went on a chase one night following my AH who had a gun and said he had had enough. Like Wren, it was hard to bear and there is still the fear......even though we are separated. The bottom line.......one can reach out and extend love in these situations....yet the ultimate desicion is left to him/her. As much as we love them and want to help.......we can only do that--- which is as far as they allow us. In AH's case.......he is still in the throws of alcohol and there are still stories that surface about how he is unhappy. Yes, there is still that fear ....... will it be tried again? That is his decision........and will be his decision...... We cannot control another's feelings, thoughts, words, or actions. So it is----I step back and pray, pray, and pray. In my heart with all these people I know I've done my best to extend the love ........ the rest I've had to "let God do" Yes, you will be remembered in my prayers. May the kindness and love extended through this and the other posts be of comfort to carry you, your family, and your grandson through this time.