I had a rough day--actually, it really wasn't all that bad, just full of stuff and as the day started ebbing towards a close I felt very irritable, depressed and tense. I said to myself in the car as I started the long drive home "When I get home, if one of my friends has a bottle of wine open, I'm so going to have a glass." I just felt the need to unwind and turn off. And I was angry at my life. I'm trying so hard to make something of myself and it feels like very little has come to fruition and then people at work speak so condescendingly to me and . . . uggghhhhh.
Well, I got home. I did not pick up anything to drink, but then I knew we had beers in the fridge. And I walked around the house opening and closing things. I thought about the headaches I went through this past week; I thought about the 9 or 10 days I'd gone without drinking (I don't know Why I can't remember if it was 9 or 10 days) and how good it felt to remember I managed not to drink yesterday or the day before. I forced myself to focus on something else for a little while. I told myself to reconsider drinking after an hour passed like people here have suggested. I ate a little late dinner and then I took a long, long, long, long (sorry water conservationists), long hot shower.
The desire (for now) has passed. I feel relaxed and so much better.
It feels good to share this too. Thanks for all the help you guys have offered here. You guys are amazing.
You're doing great, Laura. Like Doll said, hang onto your ass with both hands. This too shall pass. The headaces take their toll, and it's easy to be irritable by the end of the day. But an irritable evening beats the hell out of a morning after..hugs, Chris
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