I'm new to this forum stuff but not to AA. I have been sober, a day at a time, for quite a number of days now!!!! Visited California (Santa Barbara) last October and got myself to a few meetings - was blown away by the love and sense of belonging - can go anywhere in the world and find friends who understand my crazy thinking - yes still crazy after all these years - just not in denial quite so often. Another bonus is that the syndrome I call 'helicopter head' only occurs for brief periods these days. On saying that have been struggling of late - lost my only son Adam to this b****y illness just 18 months ago. Lost my belief in a higher power for some while but gradually its being restored. Is there anyone out there who has gone through a similar loss? Would like input on how you are coping/not coping!! I know that I could not have got through the past year or so without the love and support of AA - although I have felt like taking a drink on a number of occasions since Adam's death, up to today I have not 'slipped'. Anyway great to be in contact with another bunch of ex-drunks! Love and Hugs
Hi Kazza, and welcome! Congratulations on your many days of sobriety! I hope you connect with someone (or some people) who can empathize with your loss (as you have requested). I've never lost anyone as close to me as a child, but I'll keep you and your strength in my prayers. Take care, Laura
Very pleased to meet you - thanks for taking the time to post a reply. I'm going to get myself off to bed now - its 10.10pm and its been a long day. Work tomorrow so goodnight to all you guys over the water Love in fellowship
Welcome to MIP. It really adds so much to the quality of my sobriety along with regular face to face meetings. Congratulations on the length of your sobriety. That is really great.
I am so truly sorry for your loss. I haven't lost anyone close to me, but I do know of a lady who has. She lost her daughter early last year and has shared that it was only through going to her meetings and having lots of contact with other alcoholics that she maintained her sobriety.
Please hang in there. I'll keep you in my prayers. I do hope that you'll keep coming back and letting us know how things are going for you.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
hi, kazza, welcome to this board. I know some people who have lost children through drugs and alcohol. My child went through some stuff, and still goes through stuff that I feel really bad about, but thank God he is getting by by the skin of his teeth.
I feel cravings once in awhile, and can relate to that. One day at a time, k? Easy does it.
love in recovery,
amanda
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helicopter head? that's the best way i've heard it described yet! very cool! and i have also been in recovery for quite awhile and been through many painful (understatement) things, i also lost my faith for quite awhile, and am amazed i never picked up a drink. so while wasnt believing in God he was apparently believing in me! wow! weird!....as you can probably tell im still pretty wacky cause apparently that is my true character..(who"d a thunk it) this is a great place ...the people here really care and ive grown to love them and feel it is a real help in recovery...good place to share..look forward to getting to know you better. love from cindy
Nice to meet you Kazza - gotta love how the net shortens that distance over the big blue, huh?
I am sincerely sorry for your recent loss. I have two kids and would think it would undo me completely to lose either during my lifetime.
I just lost my husband after an 89 day battle with cancer this past October. He and I were married 19 years and were best friends as well as drinking buddies since college. We sobered up together 18 months ago. I will likely never understand why he had to go so early...
However, this Program has miraculously kept me sober - even when I really wanted to deaden the pain, even if just for a little while...
