I wrote yesterday that I am admitting to this before I loose everything. I looked for a meeting by me. As I mentioned the Connecticut web site for AA meetings don't list phone numbers. Also the church by me that has the meeting tonight does not answer the phone. I was desperate yesterday. I drank on the train on the way home and bought a six pack too. I called a friend of mine that I know is an alcoholic. I have never known him to drink since stopping so I called him. He told me he still attends AA meetings. He had an AA book of meetings and helped me out by finding another place. But best of all he must have heard how bad I was doing and offered to take me to his meeting tonight. He lives about 45 minutes away and his meeting place would not be mine, but I am relieved that I have someone to talk to and attend my first meeting with. I have not had a drink since 1:00 am and I am not in great shape. My goal today is to make it hour by hour, I look forward to talking with my friend tonight as I feel so alone in this. I also take comfort in reading all of your posts here.
hi, Kevin,,, thanks for the update. I'm glad you contacted this friend, and he is responding to you,, and that you will get to a meeting tonight. Progress is being made.
Sometimes for me , too, it is hour by hour, or even second by second.
Keep posting, and let us know how it's going,
love in recovery,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
I am so glad that you are going to a meeting tonight. Thanks for letting us know. I hope that you have a great meeting.
Please know that you are not alone. We are all here to help you, in the way that folk were there for us at the beginning and whenever we need that little extra support. Hang in there and it really will get better.
It would be great if you could let us know how things are going for you.
Take good care of yourself,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Please let us know how you are doing and congratulations for seeking AA. Keep an open mind and have some willingness and you will find a better life.
Right now you have a million fears. These will dissipate if you jump right into this program. Try not to resist AA at this point! Take it to heart, and you will find a better way.
Dittos. Maybe your friend can come with you to a meeting or two at the church. It'll be important not to get comfortable going to a meeting you can easily have reasons not to make it to. And sucking it up and facing them while going through these withdrawals, once you get thru the toughest part, youll be as comfortable as walking into your own place. People are people everywhere, but when it comes to a drunk trying to get sober, there probably isn't a person in any of those rooms that won't be just as helpful as your buddy. And for good reason. We've all been there, seen ugly, and the worse off you are, the sharper it reminds us of when we were right where you are.
I was embarrased going to a meeting in a bank, nowdays it's the one I wouldn't miss and a place where one of those moments I can put a finger on that may have literally saved my life occured.
So Kevin, by now you've probably been through the experience. How was it? I remember my first. I went alone, was a good deal shy, but people took me by the hand and introduced me to new friends all around. Cool experience. I hope you found it enjoyable as well. Keep it up...Tim
P.S. Do you sail? I see your Macgregor and figured you're a cap'n...Tim
-- Edited by timverton at 21:50, 2007-01-26
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I'm new here too. You may not feel it or think it or know it, but you're brave. I think you are, anyway. To go to a meeting and really face the problem with strangers--even if it's just a step. I'm so glad your friend went with you. I just think that's beautiful that he went out of his way to pick you up.
